01-11-2017, 07:20 AM
The awareness is not just conscious. There are parts the conscious cannot directly sense at all. And usually, unless they are screaming and raging loudly, the conscious never notices them or what they think or feel - even when, for instance, they consistently "pull" it towards some goal.
For example, me and my clutter. I now know it's an issue caused by some part of me trying to hold onto mom because of an association with clutter, and I'm clearing that out slowly (through the clearing effects of DMSI-A when I'm not running BAMM) but had I not tried to directly clear it out using an End Clutter sub I created for myself, I would never have discovered this, and my clutter would simply be normal. This part of me always slowly but surely creates a clutter on anything and everything that can hold something. It drives me nuts, consciously, because consciously I need things to be spartan and simple to most easily focus.
There are a lot of people who are filled with fear subconsciously, but they would deny it until death because of two facts:
1. It is their normal, so they don't see it as being attention-worthy, and
2. They can't see it for what it is because the fear is primarily subconscious.
These people are usually significantly to morbidly obese. The worst of them are so filled with fear that they will do things like sit on their electric scooters driving through the grocery store and eat while they shop. For that personality type, eating is a way of seeking security, although they never actually achieve it. That fear does ridiculous things, and again... most of them would laugh in your face if you suggested it was based in fear.
The point I'm making is that it's not always obvious to the conscious mind what the cause is. But when you start facing fears, you have to deal with them, and that is a process. And, it's a process that is typically scary. But the healing and clearing in DMSI is designed to make it impossible for you to regress because you are being instructed to outgrow these limitations and fears. Once you just don't fit in the cage anymore... well, there's no going back in.
I think you're actually doing a good job with growing. Keep going.
For example, me and my clutter. I now know it's an issue caused by some part of me trying to hold onto mom because of an association with clutter, and I'm clearing that out slowly (through the clearing effects of DMSI-A when I'm not running BAMM) but had I not tried to directly clear it out using an End Clutter sub I created for myself, I would never have discovered this, and my clutter would simply be normal. This part of me always slowly but surely creates a clutter on anything and everything that can hold something. It drives me nuts, consciously, because consciously I need things to be spartan and simple to most easily focus.
There are a lot of people who are filled with fear subconsciously, but they would deny it until death because of two facts:
1. It is their normal, so they don't see it as being attention-worthy, and
2. They can't see it for what it is because the fear is primarily subconscious.
These people are usually significantly to morbidly obese. The worst of them are so filled with fear that they will do things like sit on their electric scooters driving through the grocery store and eat while they shop. For that personality type, eating is a way of seeking security, although they never actually achieve it. That fear does ridiculous things, and again... most of them would laugh in your face if you suggested it was based in fear.
The point I'm making is that it's not always obvious to the conscious mind what the cause is. But when you start facing fears, you have to deal with them, and that is a process. And, it's a process that is typically scary. But the healing and clearing in DMSI is designed to make it impossible for you to regress because you are being instructed to outgrow these limitations and fears. Once you just don't fit in the cage anymore... well, there's no going back in.
I think you're actually doing a good job with growing. Keep going.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
