08-18-2016, 03:08 PM
So I took a month break, which basically allowed me to start being on DMSI 2.2, the one with healing module in it. I have to say, I had some consistency issues like when I stayed up an entire night to finish an exam/paper for courses I am taking in the summer. In these cases, I was not listening to subs as I didn't want to have any mental exhaustion degrading my performances. So these times, I didn't listen to the sub. And these could last 2~3 days in a row and such. Nevertheless, I have to say that this is the one that I probably had the best consistency listening to the sub.
Anyway, I usually listened 3 loops, but sometimes I would listen to 4 loops. And most of the times I would listen to it while I sleep (as it is the easiest time to listen uninterrupted), but on occasion, I'd listen to it on a computer why I am awake. For both uses, I am using ultrasonic, using mp3 files while I sleep, and flac on computer. I searched app to use flac on my phone, but I realized that it would stop in the middle of the second loop. I believe the silent section basically turns the app off/making the phone going into silent mode. I gave up and use mp3 if I were to use on the sleeping time.
I suppose it makes about month and a few days since I pretty much used it from the release date.
Anyway, here are a few things I noticed.
1. I became much more diligent about cleaning my houses, and doing laundries. Before I listend to the subs, I'd not really clean, and do laundries if I had to. (Like when I run out of socks, underwear and the clothes) Luckily, I don't have a strong body odor that clothes were not smelling bad. Well, this is the bad side of living as a single and living alone, with no visitors coming whatsoever. (I remember that when I was in dorm, and just moved out, I was being much cleaner, but after a year or two, I became lazy in cleaning). Anyway, after listening to the sub, I spent hours on the weekends to dump garbage, did dishes, and doing laundries. I began with clothes, towels, bedding. I am doing one at a time, and cleaning more often, emptying garbage more often. Heck, I even spend some time to clean washroom extensively.
So how clean is the place? It's not perfect to my taste, but I think I wouldn't necessarily be embarrassed to invite a friend or a girl over.
2. I built a sudden liking for veggies. I didn't mind veggies, but I never really sought veggies out. During my first to second phase, my snack of choice was veggie stick with hummus...... (Before it would have been organic potato chips.) Right now, I don't have that much craving for the veggie sticks, but this was something I noticed. Nevertheless, I am looking at male enhancing herb formulas, and ordered bunch of them. They haven't arrived, but let's see how that goes later.
3. Extreme reduction on porn, and masturbation. Well, I now never look at porns, and my masturbation amount got reduced down to about 1/3 or even to 1/4. I only masturbate, when there is some very extreme high build up of needs, and I find that I ejaculate more semen. (Well, since I don't masturbate more often I probably have more reserved semen, but anyway, just wanted to share.) I'd have more frequent and stronger erection. Not that I had erection issues anyway, but I just feel that I have more frequent and stronger erections. And also, I find that I get turned on more by photos of real people than porn actress (although the only ones I watched would be in erotica style porn, not hardcore style porn). Oh and by the way, I am finding more that this build up to the need to masturbate is getting more extended. Say it was 3 days with no fapping was the limit (during the first to 2nd week), now it is extended to 3~4 days. Not much, but I am noticing the difference.
4. I get more naked?.... Well, usually in the summer, I would sleep and stay naked, when I am at home. (Remember that nobody visits me?) I find that I do more of this than before the sub.
5. I find that I feel hotter (temperature wise) at my house. Usually I set my APT temperature at 26 Celsius in winter. I find that about half of the time I find this temperature feels a bit too hot that I reduce down to 25. Some other times I am content with 26.
6. This is a very interesting one. I care less about appearance, not other people. Not that I cared much before, but before I leave my place to get a quick bite, I would wear something more appropriate, get myself to look neat. Now, I just go down with my indoor wear and get a quick bite and comeback. And in the past, I would look at the surrounding environment, seeing what people do, what they eat, and etc, but now, I pay close to zero attention, if not any attention. For instance, due to ASD, I don't really have any social activities going on, and the only times I would go out would be to go get food, grocery shopping, school, seeing therapist, and etc. In other words, I usually go out when there is a need. This side, hasn't changed. But what I find is that in the past, say I go to restaurant alone, and wait for waiter or food, then I'd look around to see what's going on, pay attention to environments and etc. Now, I don't pay attention. I take out my phone, play a game to kill time, or read news or emails...... I suppose I sometimes did that, but now it is almost always.
7. Because of 6, I cannot report any IOIs, and people do not seem any indifferent to me about how they react to me. Well, there was only one time that I got an oyster for being a regular. True, I have been a regular on the day they would have half priced burger. I wonder if the sub had anything to do with, but nevertheless, it is true that I have been a regular due to their special days.
8. I am being thinking of actually start doing online dating/tinder/other apps. I started reading related things, but I finding more issues and challenges associated with it. First, I need pictures, but since I have nobody to call to take picture, I don't have any good pictures. (Let alone I don't really have a picture about me.) I even thought about hiring professionals to take pictures, but they are expensive as hell, so that's a no go. Second, I find that I already need to have some established social activities to be successful. (Well, a photo of myself doing some social stuff, having good time with other people, and to write off as having hobbies, and doing other stuff, other than just doing school works..... in other words, I need to have a life like my neurotypical people to even have a shot at dating.) Well, there really isn't much to go around with. I find that my interests are too narrow that I wasn't able to find people with right interests. (Meetup didn't really work) And usually even if I go there, it isn't the right demographics. (Usually they are too much older than me.)
These are the changes I noticed since I started listening to DMSI V2.2. I suppose all the work was associated with internal works. Has it produced the intended goal? I don't think so nor I feel so. Yet, because my total ignoring the environment since starting the sub, I can't say if there were any iois. Besides, as a person with ASD, I'd be probably worse than many other people's ability to catch them. Thus, I am not entirely confident to say that there was no external work, or there wasn't any aura. However, I am confident to say that there wasn't any obvious change in people (especially women)'s behavioral differences, at least to me.
Well, I'll leave it there. I don't know how often I will update. I don't think I will update on a very regular basis. I'll update once I have something more concrete, or once I see a pattern. I think I'm going to stick a bit longer with V2.2, though I am not sure to stop listening to 2.2 and wait for 2.3, or continue using it until it is released and then switch right to 2.3.
Anyway, I usually listened 3 loops, but sometimes I would listen to 4 loops. And most of the times I would listen to it while I sleep (as it is the easiest time to listen uninterrupted), but on occasion, I'd listen to it on a computer why I am awake. For both uses, I am using ultrasonic, using mp3 files while I sleep, and flac on computer. I searched app to use flac on my phone, but I realized that it would stop in the middle of the second loop. I believe the silent section basically turns the app off/making the phone going into silent mode. I gave up and use mp3 if I were to use on the sleeping time.
I suppose it makes about month and a few days since I pretty much used it from the release date.
Anyway, here are a few things I noticed.
1. I became much more diligent about cleaning my houses, and doing laundries. Before I listend to the subs, I'd not really clean, and do laundries if I had to. (Like when I run out of socks, underwear and the clothes) Luckily, I don't have a strong body odor that clothes were not smelling bad. Well, this is the bad side of living as a single and living alone, with no visitors coming whatsoever. (I remember that when I was in dorm, and just moved out, I was being much cleaner, but after a year or two, I became lazy in cleaning). Anyway, after listening to the sub, I spent hours on the weekends to dump garbage, did dishes, and doing laundries. I began with clothes, towels, bedding. I am doing one at a time, and cleaning more often, emptying garbage more often. Heck, I even spend some time to clean washroom extensively.
So how clean is the place? It's not perfect to my taste, but I think I wouldn't necessarily be embarrassed to invite a friend or a girl over.
2. I built a sudden liking for veggies. I didn't mind veggies, but I never really sought veggies out. During my first to second phase, my snack of choice was veggie stick with hummus...... (Before it would have been organic potato chips.) Right now, I don't have that much craving for the veggie sticks, but this was something I noticed. Nevertheless, I am looking at male enhancing herb formulas, and ordered bunch of them. They haven't arrived, but let's see how that goes later.
3. Extreme reduction on porn, and masturbation. Well, I now never look at porns, and my masturbation amount got reduced down to about 1/3 or even to 1/4. I only masturbate, when there is some very extreme high build up of needs, and I find that I ejaculate more semen. (Well, since I don't masturbate more often I probably have more reserved semen, but anyway, just wanted to share.) I'd have more frequent and stronger erection. Not that I had erection issues anyway, but I just feel that I have more frequent and stronger erections. And also, I find that I get turned on more by photos of real people than porn actress (although the only ones I watched would be in erotica style porn, not hardcore style porn). Oh and by the way, I am finding more that this build up to the need to masturbate is getting more extended. Say it was 3 days with no fapping was the limit (during the first to 2nd week), now it is extended to 3~4 days. Not much, but I am noticing the difference.
4. I get more naked?.... Well, usually in the summer, I would sleep and stay naked, when I am at home. (Remember that nobody visits me?) I find that I do more of this than before the sub.
5. I find that I feel hotter (temperature wise) at my house. Usually I set my APT temperature at 26 Celsius in winter. I find that about half of the time I find this temperature feels a bit too hot that I reduce down to 25. Some other times I am content with 26.
6. This is a very interesting one. I care less about appearance, not other people. Not that I cared much before, but before I leave my place to get a quick bite, I would wear something more appropriate, get myself to look neat. Now, I just go down with my indoor wear and get a quick bite and comeback. And in the past, I would look at the surrounding environment, seeing what people do, what they eat, and etc, but now, I pay close to zero attention, if not any attention. For instance, due to ASD, I don't really have any social activities going on, and the only times I would go out would be to go get food, grocery shopping, school, seeing therapist, and etc. In other words, I usually go out when there is a need. This side, hasn't changed. But what I find is that in the past, say I go to restaurant alone, and wait for waiter or food, then I'd look around to see what's going on, pay attention to environments and etc. Now, I don't pay attention. I take out my phone, play a game to kill time, or read news or emails...... I suppose I sometimes did that, but now it is almost always.
7. Because of 6, I cannot report any IOIs, and people do not seem any indifferent to me about how they react to me. Well, there was only one time that I got an oyster for being a regular. True, I have been a regular on the day they would have half priced burger. I wonder if the sub had anything to do with, but nevertheless, it is true that I have been a regular due to their special days.
8. I am being thinking of actually start doing online dating/tinder/other apps. I started reading related things, but I finding more issues and challenges associated with it. First, I need pictures, but since I have nobody to call to take picture, I don't have any good pictures. (Let alone I don't really have a picture about me.) I even thought about hiring professionals to take pictures, but they are expensive as hell, so that's a no go. Second, I find that I already need to have some established social activities to be successful. (Well, a photo of myself doing some social stuff, having good time with other people, and to write off as having hobbies, and doing other stuff, other than just doing school works..... in other words, I need to have a life like my neurotypical people to even have a shot at dating.) Well, there really isn't much to go around with. I find that my interests are too narrow that I wasn't able to find people with right interests. (Meetup didn't really work) And usually even if I go there, it isn't the right demographics. (Usually they are too much older than me.)
These are the changes I noticed since I started listening to DMSI V2.2. I suppose all the work was associated with internal works. Has it produced the intended goal? I don't think so nor I feel so. Yet, because my total ignoring the environment since starting the sub, I can't say if there were any iois. Besides, as a person with ASD, I'd be probably worse than many other people's ability to catch them. Thus, I am not entirely confident to say that there was no external work, or there wasn't any aura. However, I am confident to say that there wasn't any obvious change in people (especially women)'s behavioral differences, at least to me.
Well, I'll leave it there. I don't know how often I will update. I don't think I will update on a very regular basis. I'll update once I have something more concrete, or once I see a pattern. I think I'm going to stick a bit longer with V2.2, though I am not sure to stop listening to 2.2 and wait for 2.3, or continue using it until it is released and then switch right to 2.3.
