I haven't used SM, only WM.
But 'deviant' is just a judgement. It sounds like you were just becoming more comfortable sexually and judging yourself for it.
I don't know if WM made me feminine, but it made me just enjoy talking to girls. Had them sending me nudes, but for some reason it was difficult to meet up with some of them. Some of that was distance, but even one close was sending videos and nudes but cancelled twice when we were meant to meet up.
The problem I found with WM is that I started just enjoying most women and just wanting them for the expression of loving women, that's the best I can explain it. So even the ugly ones there would be this weird connection and i'd want to fuck them. Then i'd be like "what the fuck". It was like it brought my standards down, but not exactly.. kind of like I found other things about them to enjoy even if they were pretty fucking ugly.
But 'deviant' is just a judgement. It sounds like you were just becoming more comfortable sexually and judging yourself for it.
I don't know if WM made me feminine, but it made me just enjoy talking to girls. Had them sending me nudes, but for some reason it was difficult to meet up with some of them. Some of that was distance, but even one close was sending videos and nudes but cancelled twice when we were meant to meet up.
The problem I found with WM is that I started just enjoying most women and just wanting them for the expression of loving women, that's the best I can explain it. So even the ugly ones there would be this weird connection and i'd want to fuck them. Then i'd be like "what the fuck". It was like it brought my standards down, but not exactly.. kind of like I found other things about them to enjoy even if they were pretty fucking ugly.
