11-21-2016, 02:01 PM
Day 38 - 2 days since stopping DMSI in preparation of DMSI 3.0 (so the last day was day 36, technically)
Started no-fap again. Sexual energy is through the roof.
Interestingly, at home, I don't notice any "morphine drips".
When I leave the house and go to university, on the walk there, my mood starts getting better and better, and I arrive confidently to the uni.
Was sitting at class, we were doing Sexual Behaviour in our Brain and Behaviour class. We got to the point of forced copulation in animals.
So, the girl behind me (a blonde.. she always seemed a little interested in me) told me she wants to rape me.
Literally, she said - "Nemanja, I'll rape you".
Of course, this was in context with the lesson, but.. I don't think she was kidding, haha.
After that, I texted her on WhatsApp, she seemed cold. She would see the message, and wouldn't respond. I teased her a little about that rape thing, and she said, initially "haha, watch your back".
Teased her with - "nah, you're not brave enough to rape me". Maybe I over-teased her a little, but I don't really care, which is amazing.
This is where she went colder by saying "i was kidding about raping you, don't worry".
Anyway, I think she doesn't believe she has chances with me. She's not too great looking, maybe a 7, so it doesn't really matter.
I'm mostly sharing this because I remembered reading in a journal of some guy who said he was talking to a girl, and she would constantly say "fuck me". As in, in the context of the conversation, but was saying it repeteadly.
Moreover, in the class (before the rape thing), she asked me different things like - "what do you think of us? are we your friends?" and later "do you think i'm sexy?".
Tomorrow, I'll be teasing her some more, just for the fun of it. Maybe I'll drop her some IOI's. I still didn't decide if I would like to tap that.
Either way, I'm feeling more relaxed socially. I opened a group of girls in my class with just a "hey" and talked with them excellently, and even managed to evade AMOGing from my friend.
It's a relatively new class and I still have a problem with opening/escalating things with other people while there are other people there. I believe this will get worked on soon enough. First, we become aware of the problem, then it gets fixed.
I have a feeling it's gonna be interesting.
Started no-fap again. Sexual energy is through the roof.
Interestingly, at home, I don't notice any "morphine drips".
When I leave the house and go to university, on the walk there, my mood starts getting better and better, and I arrive confidently to the uni.
Was sitting at class, we were doing Sexual Behaviour in our Brain and Behaviour class. We got to the point of forced copulation in animals.
So, the girl behind me (a blonde.. she always seemed a little interested in me) told me she wants to rape me.
Literally, she said - "Nemanja, I'll rape you".
Of course, this was in context with the lesson, but.. I don't think she was kidding, haha.
After that, I texted her on WhatsApp, she seemed cold. She would see the message, and wouldn't respond. I teased her a little about that rape thing, and she said, initially "haha, watch your back".
Teased her with - "nah, you're not brave enough to rape me". Maybe I over-teased her a little, but I don't really care, which is amazing.
This is where she went colder by saying "i was kidding about raping you, don't worry".
Anyway, I think she doesn't believe she has chances with me. She's not too great looking, maybe a 7, so it doesn't really matter.
I'm mostly sharing this because I remembered reading in a journal of some guy who said he was talking to a girl, and she would constantly say "fuck me". As in, in the context of the conversation, but was saying it repeteadly.
Moreover, in the class (before the rape thing), she asked me different things like - "what do you think of us? are we your friends?" and later "do you think i'm sexy?".
Tomorrow, I'll be teasing her some more, just for the fun of it. Maybe I'll drop her some IOI's. I still didn't decide if I would like to tap that.
Either way, I'm feeling more relaxed socially. I opened a group of girls in my class with just a "hey" and talked with them excellently, and even managed to evade AMOGing from my friend.
It's a relatively new class and I still have a problem with opening/escalating things with other people while there are other people there. I believe this will get worked on soon enough. First, we become aware of the problem, then it gets fixed.
I have a feeling it's gonna be interesting.
