12-24-2020, 06:38 AM
Im way more in my head today and im sick of it. It feels limiting, like a social impairement. No swag, just anxious, blue, down. My social edge is also gone. This really hinders my progress, sabotage. I mean, if you are blue and down, not social at all, just anxious and in your head, nothing gets done. Its how I see it as success is tied with networking. I wonder if this reflects that im to hard on myself.
On the other hand, when im dealing with game, pro-active with mentors, then nothing seems to be off, understanding loud and clear, certain. I really missmy am6 carefreeness now, knowing that nothing is of a threat. I want to be my kingself again, a man, head of the household, head of my reality, life, and ecosystem. To just run smooth and have an innate knowing who I am snd standing on that. It starts and end with the man no matter what. A lion doesnt change. A lion is a lion.
Who I am, as a man, without all the bs and on point. Knowing myself, being myself, accepting myself, its really something and key the last couple of days.
Ah, I see, its the same old same old giving a f*ck what everyone else thinks. Glorious times these are, as I already sense myself growing beyond this. Its almost like a performance anxiety around presenting myself in a perfect way, guess it was the trauma default mask huh..
On the other hand, when im dealing with game, pro-active with mentors, then nothing seems to be off, understanding loud and clear, certain. I really missmy am6 carefreeness now, knowing that nothing is of a threat. I want to be my kingself again, a man, head of the household, head of my reality, life, and ecosystem. To just run smooth and have an innate knowing who I am snd standing on that. It starts and end with the man no matter what. A lion doesnt change. A lion is a lion.
Who I am, as a man, without all the bs and on point. Knowing myself, being myself, accepting myself, its really something and key the last couple of days.
Ah, I see, its the same old same old giving a f*ck what everyone else thinks. Glorious times these are, as I already sense myself growing beyond this. Its almost like a performance anxiety around presenting myself in a perfect way, guess it was the trauma default mask huh..
