11-14-2020, 01:28 PM
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Alright, time to get back on DMSI. November 14th first night starting now.
Im seeing things in a whole new light now. More..levelheaded regarding fears. For me its pure internal fear. Thats all there is. Not the girls or anything,, it all comes down to within. The rest is gucci. Its all a consequence. As within, so without.
So,now im running my first loop, and DMSI kicks already in like a hammer. It gets to work instantly.
Ive had numerous occassions that I wanted to run OF 5.75, as a way to go direct into fear itself, due to my conclusion of my issues. Selfbelief, selfesteem, etc, all revolving around self.
Still, the complete break, although I felt no heat after a few days, DMSI was still going. Headsnaps, people being submissive, overly apologizing, me being witty and bantering. Fear removal ( okay?) Was a factor. Ourspoken and dominant, fun, life of the party. I moved more solid atleast. Banter in the form of a coworker getting me to do stuff, to which is refused and told "you aint getting in my head" it was fun. He kept apologizing, re-assuring it was all jokes, to which I was like "bro, im all good, no worries, its all in fun spirit)
My edge is back. When im out and I notice a situation, I directly go in. Lets say, 2 girls are somewhat banyeting with eachother. I hook, take over, play, and am just playing with them. I really missed that. I used to do that when I was listening to corey skyy, which led me to make outs and just pulling women with ease. I realized this and how I forgot about it, and was like "damn bro, really? Kinda sad how I forgot my edge, my witt, my confidence"
Im feeling super chill and euphoric now ( 15 min in first loop ) running masked.
I feel things literally dissolving and melting away. I feel silky and soft like a baby. What a pimp ass baby.
Ohyeah,before I started my loops, I had the strong urge to go back unto UMS, but the difference between FRM versions got me picking DMSI. UMS as in having fears around that and wanting to yolo into bitcoin. I feel I cant fully actualize until im 100% in control of my life. 9/5 aint my thing. I need those fears gone and get it cracking. Especially now in this rona shit, the urge and drive is huge, I see no other way.
It comes to 2 things for me. Money and women. Something duke togo has coined, about that they are similar in mastery.
Im seeing things in a whole new light now. More..levelheaded regarding fears. For me its pure internal fear. Thats all there is. Not the girls or anything,, it all comes down to within. The rest is gucci. Its all a consequence. As within, so without.
So,now im running my first loop, and DMSI kicks already in like a hammer. It gets to work instantly.
Ive had numerous occassions that I wanted to run OF 5.75, as a way to go direct into fear itself, due to my conclusion of my issues. Selfbelief, selfesteem, etc, all revolving around self.
Still, the complete break, although I felt no heat after a few days, DMSI was still going. Headsnaps, people being submissive, overly apologizing, me being witty and bantering. Fear removal ( okay?) Was a factor. Ourspoken and dominant, fun, life of the party. I moved more solid atleast. Banter in the form of a coworker getting me to do stuff, to which is refused and told "you aint getting in my head" it was fun. He kept apologizing, re-assuring it was all jokes, to which I was like "bro, im all good, no worries, its all in fun spirit)
My edge is back. When im out and I notice a situation, I directly go in. Lets say, 2 girls are somewhat banyeting with eachother. I hook, take over, play, and am just playing with them. I really missed that. I used to do that when I was listening to corey skyy, which led me to make outs and just pulling women with ease. I realized this and how I forgot about it, and was like "damn bro, really? Kinda sad how I forgot my edge, my witt, my confidence"
Im feeling super chill and euphoric now ( 15 min in first loop ) running masked.
I feel things literally dissolving and melting away. I feel silky and soft like a baby. What a pimp ass baby.
Ohyeah,before I started my loops, I had the strong urge to go back unto UMS, but the difference between FRM versions got me picking DMSI. UMS as in having fears around that and wanting to yolo into bitcoin. I feel I cant fully actualize until im 100% in control of my life. 9/5 aint my thing. I need those fears gone and get it cracking. Especially now in this rona shit, the urge and drive is huge, I see no other way.
It comes to 2 things for me. Money and women. Something duke togo has coined, about that they are similar in mastery.
