Back from my annual fishin' trip, hope everyone had a good week.
Though I haven't felt much like updating this thread (almost an E2-like apathy to post), I will do my best to cap this run of DMSI.
Before I dive in, I will say that I am going to be running DMSI 3.2-A for one more week (even though I said I was done after vacation). Last night I took my final secondary ASRB break.
The reason I'm going to continue is I've noticed some new breakthroughs this last week, and want to see if that continues.
At the beginning of my trip last week, I had more "Waves of Emotion" hit me - seemingly random - but usually as my thoughts revolved around my kids, wife, and SIL. Those instances of emotion diminished considerably as the week went on.
BIL mate-guarded more than usual, while simultaneously getting along with me very well - no intimidation or looks of indignation shot my way.
MIL was very cautious of me, in a good way. No outright disrespect or arguments - in fact, quite the opposite. I still was annoyed by her, as the very sound of her voice irks me, lol. She went out of her way much of the week to keep things between us smooth.
SIL is still very attracted - perhaps the most she's ever been - but the behaviors are different. In fact, our relationship has become disappointing to me. She can no longer hold eye contact for more than a second, and any direct interaction is clipped. It's like she terrified of interacting with me. Yet, I still get all of the classic IOIs, and she even made sure she showed off her body to me in her bikini on a river day. The poses were clearly intentional.
At one point, early in the week, she made a comment about how an old TV show she likes makes her mad because the characters cheat on their spouses. It was out of left-field, and I feel like it was said to either get a reaction from me, express it out loud because she's actually thinking about cheating all of the time and she wanted to hide that by voicing her distaste for people who don't stay loyal to their marriage, IDK.
Few more notables:
Sexual dreams I could actually remember started back up. That was a positive sign.
A cute employee at the park lodge couldn't stop staring at me. Every time I glanced, she was staring a hole through me, even though I held my daughter the entire time. My daughter's cute, but I doubt she was mesmerizing this chick.
Respect from males, called "Sir" by almost everyone.
Wife showing more positive response - deference, interest in improving her appearance, sexual jokes/more open to tease, more open to having sex without excuses, and has massive orgasms within minutes - accompanied by more of her own natural lubrication than I've seen in years.
My ability to sense exactly what's needed to please in bed is heightened, and lasting as long as necessary is no longer an issue.
After being on caffeine and off caffeine, I noticed no difference in execution. Being caffeine-free did nothing for me.
Anti-anxiety module is amazing.
Remaining negatives:
No direct approaches or attempts at seduction.
Sudden flashes of fear, at times near-paralyzing. Most times has nothing to do with women, but more crazy, paranoid-delusional flashes of things happening to my kids. Or seeing myself going off the road in the car when my wife is driving, lol, when we're not.
Conscious-frustration of lack of eternals seems to shut down subconscious execution completely, albeit just temporarily.
Issues breaking ASRB by ripping off headphones, or having "technology" issues with my phone or Neutron Player.
Not seeing the full effects of Positive Thinking Positive Attitude. Experiencing a lot of negative chatter in my head, a lot of the time.
Not as apt to get out and do fun things as I was on 3.1.
No noticeable detox, past physical symptoms the first month. I don't know if toxic beliefs have been cleared or not. Likely so, just not sure which ones.
Finally (and I've already addressed this with Shannon), "This program’s design goal is specifically to cause people who are of the gender you find sexually attractive to be irresistibly attracted to you and aroused by you sexually to the degree that they actually and repeatedly try to initiate and have as much physical sex with you as you allow them to."
I believe "as you allow them to" is giving my subc a loop hole to not execute DMSI past IOIs.
We'll see if anything changes this week, or during the bloom phase.
Though I haven't felt much like updating this thread (almost an E2-like apathy to post), I will do my best to cap this run of DMSI.
Before I dive in, I will say that I am going to be running DMSI 3.2-A for one more week (even though I said I was done after vacation). Last night I took my final secondary ASRB break.
The reason I'm going to continue is I've noticed some new breakthroughs this last week, and want to see if that continues.
At the beginning of my trip last week, I had more "Waves of Emotion" hit me - seemingly random - but usually as my thoughts revolved around my kids, wife, and SIL. Those instances of emotion diminished considerably as the week went on.
BIL mate-guarded more than usual, while simultaneously getting along with me very well - no intimidation or looks of indignation shot my way.
MIL was very cautious of me, in a good way. No outright disrespect or arguments - in fact, quite the opposite. I still was annoyed by her, as the very sound of her voice irks me, lol. She went out of her way much of the week to keep things between us smooth.
SIL is still very attracted - perhaps the most she's ever been - but the behaviors are different. In fact, our relationship has become disappointing to me. She can no longer hold eye contact for more than a second, and any direct interaction is clipped. It's like she terrified of interacting with me. Yet, I still get all of the classic IOIs, and she even made sure she showed off her body to me in her bikini on a river day. The poses were clearly intentional.
At one point, early in the week, she made a comment about how an old TV show she likes makes her mad because the characters cheat on their spouses. It was out of left-field, and I feel like it was said to either get a reaction from me, express it out loud because she's actually thinking about cheating all of the time and she wanted to hide that by voicing her distaste for people who don't stay loyal to their marriage, IDK.
Few more notables:
Sexual dreams I could actually remember started back up. That was a positive sign.
A cute employee at the park lodge couldn't stop staring at me. Every time I glanced, she was staring a hole through me, even though I held my daughter the entire time. My daughter's cute, but I doubt she was mesmerizing this chick.
Respect from males, called "Sir" by almost everyone.
Wife showing more positive response - deference, interest in improving her appearance, sexual jokes/more open to tease, more open to having sex without excuses, and has massive orgasms within minutes - accompanied by more of her own natural lubrication than I've seen in years.
My ability to sense exactly what's needed to please in bed is heightened, and lasting as long as necessary is no longer an issue.
After being on caffeine and off caffeine, I noticed no difference in execution. Being caffeine-free did nothing for me.
Anti-anxiety module is amazing.
Remaining negatives:
No direct approaches or attempts at seduction.
Sudden flashes of fear, at times near-paralyzing. Most times has nothing to do with women, but more crazy, paranoid-delusional flashes of things happening to my kids. Or seeing myself going off the road in the car when my wife is driving, lol, when we're not.
Conscious-frustration of lack of eternals seems to shut down subconscious execution completely, albeit just temporarily.
Issues breaking ASRB by ripping off headphones, or having "technology" issues with my phone or Neutron Player.
Not seeing the full effects of Positive Thinking Positive Attitude. Experiencing a lot of negative chatter in my head, a lot of the time.
Not as apt to get out and do fun things as I was on 3.1.
No noticeable detox, past physical symptoms the first month. I don't know if toxic beliefs have been cleared or not. Likely so, just not sure which ones.
Finally (and I've already addressed this with Shannon), "This program’s design goal is specifically to cause people who are of the gender you find sexually attractive to be irresistibly attracted to you and aroused by you sexually to the degree that they actually and repeatedly try to initiate and have as much physical sex with you as you allow them to."
I believe "as you allow them to" is giving my subc a loop hole to not execute DMSI past IOIs.
We'll see if anything changes this week, or during the bloom phase.
