05-30-2018, 01:18 PM
(This post was last modified: 05-30-2018, 01:20 PM by Have at ye.)
Today's break day, resuming tomorrow in the evening/night.
I kinda got further annoyed and did 8 loops of ver. B two nights in a row. There's a good chance that 4 loops at the volume I was using might have been interpreted by my subC as too much pressure - I lowered the volume back down to -30dB on 8 loops and am not noticing anything untoward. Noticing progress, running into and being interacted with by very nice women these past two days, with some being very obviously into me. Also my celebrity effect is becoming really, really strong as far as I can tell.
I believe I kinda needed to break through some things, as I was noticing definite fear-based feedback to the fact that things are progressing the way they are (as in - very well, as far as I can tell!). I'd rather not allow myself to get cold feet once again. Never fucking again - that was hell.
I don't think that 8 loops is going to be viable for me long term, but I might try to keep that number until Sunday. Afterwards, I'm back on tour, so... even 4 loops might be a stretch. We'll see. I'll be doing 2 loops at the very least while on tour.
EDIT
Also, I'm finding myself listening to the Bond-flick song "You know my name" by Chris Cornell quite a bit recently. Also Nevermore's cover of Judas Priest's "Love bites". Interesting.
I kinda got further annoyed and did 8 loops of ver. B two nights in a row. There's a good chance that 4 loops at the volume I was using might have been interpreted by my subC as too much pressure - I lowered the volume back down to -30dB on 8 loops and am not noticing anything untoward. Noticing progress, running into and being interacted with by very nice women these past two days, with some being very obviously into me. Also my celebrity effect is becoming really, really strong as far as I can tell.
I believe I kinda needed to break through some things, as I was noticing definite fear-based feedback to the fact that things are progressing the way they are (as in - very well, as far as I can tell!). I'd rather not allow myself to get cold feet once again. Never fucking again - that was hell.
I don't think that 8 loops is going to be viable for me long term, but I might try to keep that number until Sunday. Afterwards, I'm back on tour, so... even 4 loops might be a stretch. We'll see. I'll be doing 2 loops at the very least while on tour.
EDIT
Also, I'm finding myself listening to the Bond-flick song "You know my name" by Chris Cornell quite a bit recently. Also Nevermore's cover of Judas Priest's "Love bites". Interesting.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
