So I went off DMSI for a day and felt the brain fog lift. I may be able to get something done now. 24 hours later I began MHS 5.5G. That got a little interesting. I hadn't had any sexual energy feelings or sexy dreams during those past 2 weeks on DMSI 3.1A.
I went to sleep playing MHS and woke up multiple times having to urinate. I had drank quite a bit before bed, but it kept coming! I woke up multiple times with rock solid erections having to pee. There is a link between full bladders and erections, but I was really feeling the chi. The second time was weird, it felt like I had almost peed the bed. Like a burning intense electric erection. So I get up and relieve myself. There was such a strong sensation in my penis that it felt like I was continuing to urinate after I was done, like there was just so much energy in the tip that I could barely tell if I was urinating or not. Then I went back to sleep.
I found a folder of atomic red pills on my computer that I had collected during years of AM6. It reminded me that I'm really not a bad person, women have only forsaken all virtue and rationality turning against men out of some sick penis envy and fostered sense of entitlement. No biggie. Just another day on planet Earth with it's alien overlords. I was tempted to start dropping atomic red pills here but they might turn the forum to dust.
I've found the link between obesity and narcissism, but there are plenty of articles on that. Man, some people are fucked up. I keep getting drawn to these dysfunctional people online and they have really made me question my own sanity. Some grotesquely obese woman baited me for diet advice on a phone app today. She didn't really want help, but lured me in talking about her past younger self and attractive daughters and how she wanted a better life, then got me to reveal some vulnerabilities about myself, I wasn't buying her bullshit anyhow, so then she started ridiculing me and laughing about how much better/happier she was and that she gets laid by a 6'3 157 pound hunk of muscle while I get nothing. This woman was 300+lbs and dead inside. That's an example of a malignant narcissist. Then she blocked me, because they always discard their victim first. I felt that common chest pain from social rejection. Even though this was trivial bullshit, I still felt a sharp pain. There is a physical component to this because the nerves and blood vessels constrict due to stress, but I can't find the medical term right now. These creatures are murderers of men's hearts. I know not all women are like this, there are still some sweet ones left. However, I don't know where to find them. My self-esteem has been absolutely crushed by these types of dysfunctional individuals. Some type of superficial charm drives me to them, and I know I'm in love with the fake image of an ideal woman rather than the real thing.
Since so many people are narcissistic in this culture, and even those women without NPD are taught to foster such traits from girlhood onwards, I feel like I have to have extreme self-esteem and unbreakable bravado to even compete. The only other option is to entirely avoid them. There is true evil in this world, make no mistake.
I went to sleep playing MHS and woke up multiple times having to urinate. I had drank quite a bit before bed, but it kept coming! I woke up multiple times with rock solid erections having to pee. There is a link between full bladders and erections, but I was really feeling the chi. The second time was weird, it felt like I had almost peed the bed. Like a burning intense electric erection. So I get up and relieve myself. There was such a strong sensation in my penis that it felt like I was continuing to urinate after I was done, like there was just so much energy in the tip that I could barely tell if I was urinating or not. Then I went back to sleep.
I found a folder of atomic red pills on my computer that I had collected during years of AM6. It reminded me that I'm really not a bad person, women have only forsaken all virtue and rationality turning against men out of some sick penis envy and fostered sense of entitlement. No biggie. Just another day on planet Earth with it's alien overlords. I was tempted to start dropping atomic red pills here but they might turn the forum to dust.
I've found the link between obesity and narcissism, but there are plenty of articles on that. Man, some people are fucked up. I keep getting drawn to these dysfunctional people online and they have really made me question my own sanity. Some grotesquely obese woman baited me for diet advice on a phone app today. She didn't really want help, but lured me in talking about her past younger self and attractive daughters and how she wanted a better life, then got me to reveal some vulnerabilities about myself, I wasn't buying her bullshit anyhow, so then she started ridiculing me and laughing about how much better/happier she was and that she gets laid by a 6'3 157 pound hunk of muscle while I get nothing. This woman was 300+lbs and dead inside. That's an example of a malignant narcissist. Then she blocked me, because they always discard their victim first. I felt that common chest pain from social rejection. Even though this was trivial bullshit, I still felt a sharp pain. There is a physical component to this because the nerves and blood vessels constrict due to stress, but I can't find the medical term right now. These creatures are murderers of men's hearts. I know not all women are like this, there are still some sweet ones left. However, I don't know where to find them. My self-esteem has been absolutely crushed by these types of dysfunctional individuals. Some type of superficial charm drives me to them, and I know I'm in love with the fake image of an ideal woman rather than the real thing.
Since so many people are narcissistic in this culture, and even those women without NPD are taught to foster such traits from girlhood onwards, I feel like I have to have extreme self-esteem and unbreakable bravado to even compete. The only other option is to entirely avoid them. There is true evil in this world, make no mistake.
