DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[CatMan]

Unless the program is fully working with Version A, you shouldn't be switching to Version B.

I know everybody wants POWAR and all, but I doubt all the people switching to Version B are truly ready for it to work with them in reality. In fact, I'm not even sure anyone is yet, given how things have gone so far.

That's my opinion, friend.

[Benjamin]

Hahahahahahahahahahahah, thank you for that laugh, sir!!

If you somehow get a random delivery that's in a really big box now you're gonna be like "what the fuck".

[RTBoss]

You did tell us early on in the journal to disuade you from switching to B, if it came down to it. Furthermore, gut vs. head and you went with your head. Use your head, and go with your gut.

[Duke.Togo]

I'll just say this much, you can always go back to A. There is no absolutes when it comes to the different versions of DMSI. And B will give you a perspective that A can't, simply because they both approach the end goal a little differently.

So, my advice to you is stay on B for a week or two, switch back to A, switch over to B again after some more time on A, and rinse, repeat.

I sometimes wonder if the drive to only use A is now a form of resistance as well. B won't kill you, it's not as bad honestly. It just focuses you towards the end goal.

I just wouldn't use one version to hide behind, and I mean that respectively of both A and B.

They're two sides of the same coin at the end of the day.

[eternity]

You did tell us early on in the journal to disuade you from switching to B, if it came down to it. Furthermore, gut vs. head and you went with your head. Use your head, and go with your gut.

you're right! and I "logically" "rationalized" to myself that P5 will keep the clearing executing in my head for at LEAST the remainder of the 30 days, so i'm technically still on A.

clever subconscious!

With that being said, I think I will give B a shot. I ran B yesterday, as you guys know, and the result was that in the evening, I was projecting the aura full force. My face was burning up, and the hottest women in the room were checking me out.

Running from clearing can only explain so much before it becomes the go to response for deciding to use B. I'm not gonna deny that it's a possibility that I indeed am running. but just like in 3.0, I will switch back to A should the results of B demonstrate taht it's too rough to handle.

I've been talking to a friend over thpast few weeks about a particular subject. I've gotten to a place in reality where I don't relate or identify with the person i used to be. And I'm not talking about things like "oh hey, I don't have much negative self talk anymore!" or things of that nature. While that sentiment is indeed true, that my negative self talk is pretty much gone, I'm referring to a major focal poitn of my life.

The way I carry myself, conduct my business, and interact with other people indicates in no way shape or form that I used to be a homeless & hopeless IV drug addict until November 26, 2014. I just don't relate to that "self" anymore. It's like that [eternity] was in a different lifetime. Not only am I a different person now, I'm generations beyond that person from the past. It doesn't feel like it's only been 2.5 years. I say generations because it feels lifetimes apart.

EXCEPT..... for maybe that I keep talking about that H drip like a drug addict would

Regardless, I think the reality bending from 3.0 to where we're at now in 3.1 has taken me to significantly different lifelines where the road ahead contains nothing but greatness. Even in difficult times, such as those of fear based financial insecurity (earlier this week), the shittiness only goes to break the shittiness of the present, to unfold the greatness ahead.


Meme credit goes to nemanja

[Blacksheep]

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[Shannon]

I am thrilled to death to hear you talking about how far you have grown and come towards success in life, Eternity. That makes my day - to see someone rise from the ashes of their negative past and succeed is truly an awesome thing to behold. Keep on going!

[eternity]

Thanks shannon! It wasn't a cakewalk, but looking back and trying to identify with the person that I was makes the old me seem so foreign. It's easy to forget the actual work that goes into changing everything.

In Dimsee related news:

I ran B again this morning. Around the first few minutes of loop 2, I started getting hit by a dopamine-heavy euphoria. And then, I started getting dragon breath >=).

If the euphoria is any indication of script acceptance, I'm in for some solid results over the next week.

[eternity]

Broke up with my gf. Emotionally turbulent, but it was bound to happen. It had to happen. It fukkin hurts! Can't believe I pulled the trigger in ending this relationship, but I did. What a sting.

Version B is doing something, but I need to own up to the fact that I have GOT to shift things around if I'm going to be an embodiment of a man of dimsee'd proportions

A darker and more mysterious side of myself is showing its face.I can't wait to see the refined version of this. But until then, I have to fasten my seatbelt because shit can get heavy XD

[eternity]

Context of the breakup is that she tried to close the open relationship twice. Here's what I messaged a friend earlier:

All good. Trigger has been pulled too many times over the past week. It had to be done for good and all. She pulled the "you can't get physical with other women" card. Since she insisted on that despite the open relationship, I brought it to a close. And not for selfish reasons either. She found a guy her age, and she started having feelings for him. I asked her explicitly if what we have was getting in the way of moving forward with him. She said yes.

With that being the case, respecting her boundaries of only wanting one sexual partner at a time, and her mate only having one partner at a time. .... it is wiser to cancel our relationship altogether, rather than trying to sway her to my position of non monogamy.

But she ended up accusing me of shit that pissed me off. Yo, I did this for her, to be happy with someone who can provide her with what she needs. She then accused me of using her for sex. I dunno. I'm hurt, but not too bad.

She did say something about me this weekend though. She said I'm becoming dark.

Seemed to me that she's trying to keep me as an orbiter, continuing to invest in her emotionally. She senses that I'm a high value male, rising in status FAST. And she's trying to strap me down and keep me invested while she gets closer with another man. Nope. I'm going to be the bigger man here. Her long term happiness is more important to me than getting laid. What's even more important is what I am willing to put up with in exchange for a relationship.

She accused me of many things when I told her I'm not going to consider moving in together if we are not in a relationship, and that I am no longer taking her out of town in 3 weeks. Unless she wants to pay 50%

I really didn't take kindly to that. Especially not after the painful decision I made for her benefit. Lol. So, it's over. And I won't give friendship a shot until a few days, when things have had time to cool off.

Suggestions on what to do by Shannon are welcome, but I kindly ask others to not provide suggestions. Comments, and discussion are encouraged, however.

[Shannon]

Use DMSI 3.1-A to help with the emotional transition. Give yourself the time and space to heal from this.

[eternity]

dammit i was in the middle of typing a jouranl entry, and the power went off at the office building. AGAIN. This time, however, it only went off for a few seconds before coming back on.

and guess what other correlative data point I can connect to it?

That's right. I did 4 loops of dimsee.

2 loops of version B @ 9:15 PM. then 2 loops of version A @ 1:15 AM.

so. 4 loops of dimsee = power outage @ office building.

I bet if I do another 2 loops, I can get off work early ^________~


*contemplates whether he wants to go home and sleep more, or whether he wants more money......*

[SargeMaximus]

I sneezed in the car the other day and the radio stopped working for a second right after. O.O

[Shannon]

I used 4 loops of DMSI and the sun went out. :O