06-24-2017, 10:59 AM
Day 117
So.
I ran A yesterday, on around 8-9 notches (the one that caused my subconscious to shit bricks).
As I started running it, I got more and more thoughts, and I started getting that terror again.
And then it dawned on me.
The subconscious was trying to sabotage my efforts because it was scared shitless of either executing, or digging into that "goldmine" I talked about yesterday.
It was sending me such thoughts and feelings ON PURPOSE, to try and stop me from doing high loops.
I stuck through with the volume, put all those thoughts and feelings of dread aside, and listened to all my 7 loops (actually, I listened to like.. 9, because reasons).
Anyway, I believe that "dawning", that information I got, was from those higher levels of subconscious that are directing and working on executing DMSI. It was just information out of plain blue sky.
You can imagine my surprise when, among all the feelings of dread and terror, and similar thoughts, I just got a clear, pure, coherent thought!
Anyway, trucking on towards world domination.
So.
I ran A yesterday, on around 8-9 notches (the one that caused my subconscious to shit bricks).
As I started running it, I got more and more thoughts, and I started getting that terror again.
And then it dawned on me.
The subconscious was trying to sabotage my efforts because it was scared shitless of either executing, or digging into that "goldmine" I talked about yesterday.
It was sending me such thoughts and feelings ON PURPOSE, to try and stop me from doing high loops.
I stuck through with the volume, put all those thoughts and feelings of dread aside, and listened to all my 7 loops (actually, I listened to like.. 9, because reasons).
Anyway, I believe that "dawning", that information I got, was from those higher levels of subconscious that are directing and working on executing DMSI. It was just information out of plain blue sky.
You can imagine my surprise when, among all the feelings of dread and terror, and similar thoughts, I just got a clear, pure, coherent thought!
Anyway, trucking on towards world domination.