05-16-2017, 12:50 PM
I started B today and intend to run it for a week to test the waters. For the notes, I had already run 3.1 for about two weeks before MHS so summed up I did A for about a month now.
After starting B I started to feel very relaxed and towards the end of the first loop I also started to get tired. So I decided to take a nap while doing the second loop. I almost crashed immediately and woke up about two hours later. Man, this really knocked me out. Anyway, after waking I took my mobile and saw a respond of one of my matches. But after starting the app all my matches and also the response was gone. This really frustrated me and a lot of negativity came up. I felt like I will stay forever this awkward ugly guy and can be lucky if any woman on this planet will touch me at some point. The negativity continued and at the end I felt like I will never accomplish anything, only if the world would do me a great favor. Funny enough, after these thoughts a memory from my childhood came up where I was trying to do something. Then an adult came up, took the stuff out of my hands and said "No, you simply can't do it, you don't make it right, I have to do it for you". This memory really hit me hard and I feel like shit. I mean it explains why I have so many difficulties with such a disempowering belief.
Other than that there seem to be almost no resistance at all. Here and there a feeling of headache but only lasting for a second or so and only happened few times. So if there is some resistance I don't notice.
After starting B I started to feel very relaxed and towards the end of the first loop I also started to get tired. So I decided to take a nap while doing the second loop. I almost crashed immediately and woke up about two hours later. Man, this really knocked me out. Anyway, after waking I took my mobile and saw a respond of one of my matches. But after starting the app all my matches and also the response was gone. This really frustrated me and a lot of negativity came up. I felt like I will stay forever this awkward ugly guy and can be lucky if any woman on this planet will touch me at some point. The negativity continued and at the end I felt like I will never accomplish anything, only if the world would do me a great favor. Funny enough, after these thoughts a memory from my childhood came up where I was trying to do something. Then an adult came up, took the stuff out of my hands and said "No, you simply can't do it, you don't make it right, I have to do it for you". This memory really hit me hard and I feel like shit. I mean it explains why I have so many difficulties with such a disempowering belief.
Other than that there seem to be almost no resistance at all. Here and there a feeling of headache but only lasting for a second or so and only happened few times. So if there is some resistance I don't notice.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
