This evening apathy sets in, followed by depression and wanting to curl up in a ball. Feeling pretty much teary aswell which snowballed in and is hitting me like a bus.
On the other hand, its clearly TID thats hitting me. Strong drive in hitting the gym yet almost complete non neediness bordering zen. My root chakra aswell as my crotch fired up aswell. Attraction feels also more similar and I look incredible, l0 bs tolerance mixed in almost with a nihilistic drive of non chalance in life now. Again, sexual realisations are hutting me like a train now which is sweet. Its an ongoing theme now to have my head in an almost sexual dreamlike world with having externals hitting me like crazy aswell
Tomorrow will be interesting. I can only face the feelings coming up at this point. Ready to break the wall down.
And now im counting my blessings. Positive swing like no crushing headache like yesterday. Life's good
On the other hand, its clearly TID thats hitting me. Strong drive in hitting the gym yet almost complete non neediness bordering zen. My root chakra aswell as my crotch fired up aswell. Attraction feels also more similar and I look incredible, l0 bs tolerance mixed in almost with a nihilistic drive of non chalance in life now. Again, sexual realisations are hutting me like a train now which is sweet. Its an ongoing theme now to have my head in an almost sexual dreamlike world with having externals hitting me like crazy aswell
Tomorrow will be interesting. I can only face the feelings coming up at this point. Ready to break the wall down.
And now im counting my blessings. Positive swing like no crushing headache like yesterday. Life's good
