Strong depression response currently at the moment like DMSI is disrooting all kind of stuff. As soon as I turn on B its irrelevant. Still proceeding with B, but it is felt. Strong memories surface aswell and this set some weird bipolar like swings in motion. One moment depressed, next moment im feeling the aura project. Im still witty but its really strong and intense. Having countless memories involving feeling alienated and old feelings and connections, like the whole raw package in its total. Its all worth it. Seeing glimpses already although its crushing me now. In some weird wsy I keep progressing massively. Im even expression the swings, the irritatsble, the disgust, the anger, rage, disdain. Pure depression. Guess this aint want to die and was lurking all the time.
DMSI touches on things AM6 hasnt. Like a whole other area. Its stomach churning and severe. Its worked through right now. I will not back off like an innate drive to go through like a breeze.
B will be still ran no matter what. Its dominant in my mind to keep on going with B. Connetions with e.c are instantly made. Like its inevitable.
Edit:
Autopilot takes over fully. "M" is snipered HARD. im uncovering fears and im like a wild animal snipering right now left and right. B is executing now. Im stared at strongly and am (getting ) used to it.
Another guy approached me. Exhaustion gives autopilot reign the guy started chatting me up like a familiar and we talked a bit. Great guy. Great friend already. Im proud how much I have grown.
Edit2: Its really amusing. She becomes more caring by the minute all leading up to sex. Its unreal. Oh shit.
Edit3: I still tend to heal in all kind of ways. M started to shittest me and I caught myself being reactive only to regain playfullness around it. I have a strong abundance of women ans why should I react then to it like its some of a big deal. Getting/reading instinctually seduction and attraction. Its all clear to me. B version is akin to living a dream by being fully immersed in autopilot with knowing the signals and increasing automatically from there and expecting to jump my bones. It keeps banging at all. I sllign with execution.
DMSI touches on things AM6 hasnt. Like a whole other area. Its stomach churning and severe. Its worked through right now. I will not back off like an innate drive to go through like a breeze.
B will be still ran no matter what. Its dominant in my mind to keep on going with B. Connetions with e.c are instantly made. Like its inevitable.
Edit:
Autopilot takes over fully. "M" is snipered HARD. im uncovering fears and im like a wild animal snipering right now left and right. B is executing now. Im stared at strongly and am (getting ) used to it.
Another guy approached me. Exhaustion gives autopilot reign the guy started chatting me up like a familiar and we talked a bit. Great guy. Great friend already. Im proud how much I have grown.
Edit2: Its really amusing. She becomes more caring by the minute all leading up to sex. Its unreal. Oh shit.
Edit3: I still tend to heal in all kind of ways. M started to shittest me and I caught myself being reactive only to regain playfullness around it. I have a strong abundance of women ans why should I react then to it like its some of a big deal. Getting/reading instinctually seduction and attraction. Its all clear to me. B version is akin to living a dream by being fully immersed in autopilot with knowing the signals and increasing automatically from there and expecting to jump my bones. It keeps banging at all. I sllign with execution.
