DMSI 3.1 ~ Rise in power ( TID 3.2 anticipation )

[Kol]

Staying on A as long as my subconscious coins it. Well, strong swings take place, fully mixed states aswell and lots of negativity that, I thought, AM6 dealt with, the standing up for myself thing. It has to be pretty deep. This anger, rage, jelousy, agression, pissed offness on the split second. Feelings and emotions feeling is good now. Gimme it all.

So, thats that. ION...
Externals are ramping up. Im chatted up by people like im a rockstar superstar celebrity. Otherwise im stsrting to become some kind of cocky ass fuckboi. Idk man. I like it when I dont care, am confident and non caring about women, like I know they are attracted. The externals are obvious. Internals improve but not without being fucking braindead and shit at times, being socially inept and shit. DMSI does fix this. Admitting is a strong game.

Realizing the dark side of sex and am diving in it aswell. Like it snowballs.

A healed me in far superior ways at this point yet am still affected when some girls play shit. Its really triggering me still. Ffs. Like "I want your D and send Dickpics!" and the next its all vague and shit like shameless flirting around and hoe-ing Round. Yes, its hurtfull. Call me a lil bishhh. Lmao.

Running A is already handling this shit. Whatever. I really use the words shit lots eh? Well SHIT.

Anyways. Healing is painfull now, like coreshaking and touching. Milfs want me. Women crave, lust and want my dick. Life's good and when im on, im ON. Also realize something about DMSI with the non approsching thingie and women seducing me. But damn, I look hot af in the mirror with my sexy eyes and jaeline and glowy face and... yanno. Everything. It blew me the f away.

One moment im clear. Next moment im confused.