Attraction is very powerfull. Also realizing no strings attached sex. While she knows im on my mission yet eagerly to please. Its no big deal which is massive.
Attraction is strong in a sense my old lead "S" blurred out she needs someone to keep her warm. Constantly. Now im not the one to bite such booty calls. Idk why. A might help me heal in this. Its like im neutral to her aswell. Like I want but not want.
Also, other girl "A" is already calling me petnames, in a sexual overt way. Other girls also show interest. Also, tindr is somewhat more of an interest. Had a thought crossing today of "im bored" and then opened tindr. DMSI directs me to all kind of ways sexually. Healing on version A might give a very big impact. Had 9 loops in today which led me fried. Clearly processing but warm now. All kind of girls hit me up now.
I am the prize. Feeling reassured and solid. Being comfortable in my sexual skin proves huge growth to me.
Ill play with what is mine.
When she says she is bad at following orders, it translates into submission. A.k.a bad girl. I pierce right through it. Deep primal dynamics and dhv. I love it. Dhv is great. Arash has some great material on it, aswell as another guy I follow on facebook. Like, the whole gf thing being an illusion. It can be a shallow empty thing. Seduction/attraction/alphasperm/primal nature and hardwire is revealing. It also ties in with the rational male and branch swinging. Because she says she is your gf might be actually just meaningless posturing/fronting. Gets in the field of women not having an inate awareness to begin with, not knowing what they want, leading kind of dynamics and vacuum. Equal to the emotional spikings and rollercoaster junkies. It clicks and is almost like a huge difference in worlds. I know Ill have them and am confiddnt in it. It translates in knowing that she is attracted on an animalistic level and base, and the gf/bf might actually be an illusion. Not exactly redpill stuff but way more close to the raw stuff. It means nothing. Attraction speaks on itself and gived a damn cobfidence thrill. Punishment and reward co-exist. Also having a growing sense of anti-snipers which gives some inner resolvement now. It makes sense.
The talk on the AS I realize massive growth in it. Cobfidence growing. Perhaps climbing the ladder on the women dealing with. For example, bratty women help you grow and there is no emasculation in it. No need to. An certain level of disconnect. "Crazy" women, aka rough raw sexual women with an edge, there is an outcome independent rawness in it. Really crazy women, like those who seek ways to harm/destroy you...err teah. There is growth in brats, in drama chicks and embracing that shit. Its a matter of preference to me. Could be because 9 loops also disillusion me right now at this point, generating intense confidence from a standpoint of able to handle and seeing for what it all is, thus giving me a solid baseline only to again shoot right through the okaynesd of not having it. Purposely getting on quicksand and feet wet lol
Attraction is strong in a sense my old lead "S" blurred out she needs someone to keep her warm. Constantly. Now im not the one to bite such booty calls. Idk why. A might help me heal in this. Its like im neutral to her aswell. Like I want but not want.
Also, other girl "A" is already calling me petnames, in a sexual overt way. Other girls also show interest. Also, tindr is somewhat more of an interest. Had a thought crossing today of "im bored" and then opened tindr. DMSI directs me to all kind of ways sexually. Healing on version A might give a very big impact. Had 9 loops in today which led me fried. Clearly processing but warm now. All kind of girls hit me up now.
I am the prize. Feeling reassured and solid. Being comfortable in my sexual skin proves huge growth to me.
Ill play with what is mine.
When she says she is bad at following orders, it translates into submission. A.k.a bad girl. I pierce right through it. Deep primal dynamics and dhv. I love it. Dhv is great. Arash has some great material on it, aswell as another guy I follow on facebook. Like, the whole gf thing being an illusion. It can be a shallow empty thing. Seduction/attraction/alphasperm/primal nature and hardwire is revealing. It also ties in with the rational male and branch swinging. Because she says she is your gf might be actually just meaningless posturing/fronting. Gets in the field of women not having an inate awareness to begin with, not knowing what they want, leading kind of dynamics and vacuum. Equal to the emotional spikings and rollercoaster junkies. It clicks and is almost like a huge difference in worlds. I know Ill have them and am confiddnt in it. It translates in knowing that she is attracted on an animalistic level and base, and the gf/bf might actually be an illusion. Not exactly redpill stuff but way more close to the raw stuff. It means nothing. Attraction speaks on itself and gived a damn cobfidence thrill. Punishment and reward co-exist. Also having a growing sense of anti-snipers which gives some inner resolvement now. It makes sense.
The talk on the AS I realize massive growth in it. Cobfidence growing. Perhaps climbing the ladder on the women dealing with. For example, bratty women help you grow and there is no emasculation in it. No need to. An certain level of disconnect. "Crazy" women, aka rough raw sexual women with an edge, there is an outcome independent rawness in it. Really crazy women, like those who seek ways to harm/destroy you...err teah. There is growth in brats, in drama chicks and embracing that shit. Its a matter of preference to me. Could be because 9 loops also disillusion me right now at this point, generating intense confidence from a standpoint of able to handle and seeing for what it all is, thus giving me a solid baseline only to again shoot right through the okaynesd of not having it. Purposely getting on quicksand and feet wet lol
