To add yesterday evening, I was consciously aware I was an whole other and different person all together, like literally. SubC is was ware of the massive inner working place, I was feeding in eachother.
Also, just went out, not feeling much of B, not caring lots, getting to the point of abundance solidifying sense, and this girl, who is pretty cute, did melt, and smiled while barely able to do anything, stumbling over words, locking eyes and forgetting everything, while I was projecting without me doing anything. I was complete calm, in my world, pretty much bedroom luv like as an form of execution. She just forgoty everything in a strong obvious way. Everybody turned their heads while this happened at the checkout. Other girl, who mostly is sort of closed up, while I have broken through her shields at time, now starts to open me up, shaking her ass, knowing I look. 2 ldays in on B, yet it feels different from my previous 14 days of B.
Im also more talkative, like when I was getting my new haircut, but feel zoning into an more somewhat silent (?) demeanor, like, okay I know, B is taking over, I dont stand a chance. I really dont give a fuck anymore, socializing is fun, I cannot be arsed.
Other things deepen, what was a slight resistance before, shifts in a matter of minutes and I see the excitement in it, in the sexual area for me, like my interests get more extreme, I see how I can apply it and it is thrilling to me. Time to get shit done. Music is awesome btw. Im incorporating it in ( mental) situations. DMSI is a journey. Its also somatic, I feel it, live it, and sense it, how Im doing it, thus strengthen me in my dom role, the whole tieing up and stuff, its a art, and going on deep levels yet for my pleasure.
Also, just went out, not feeling much of B, not caring lots, getting to the point of abundance solidifying sense, and this girl, who is pretty cute, did melt, and smiled while barely able to do anything, stumbling over words, locking eyes and forgetting everything, while I was projecting without me doing anything. I was complete calm, in my world, pretty much bedroom luv like as an form of execution. She just forgoty everything in a strong obvious way. Everybody turned their heads while this happened at the checkout. Other girl, who mostly is sort of closed up, while I have broken through her shields at time, now starts to open me up, shaking her ass, knowing I look. 2 ldays in on B, yet it feels different from my previous 14 days of B.
Im also more talkative, like when I was getting my new haircut, but feel zoning into an more somewhat silent (?) demeanor, like, okay I know, B is taking over, I dont stand a chance. I really dont give a fuck anymore, socializing is fun, I cannot be arsed.
Other things deepen, what was a slight resistance before, shifts in a matter of minutes and I see the excitement in it, in the sexual area for me, like my interests get more extreme, I see how I can apply it and it is thrilling to me. Time to get shit done. Music is awesome btw. Im incorporating it in ( mental) situations. DMSI is a journey. Its also somatic, I feel it, live it, and sense it, how Im doing it, thus strengthen me in my dom role, the whole tieing up and stuff, its a art, and going on deep levels yet for my pleasure.
