Yeah definitely Ben, definitely. Choking tho as the aura is contageous, especially when gazing their eyes when doing it.
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Coming to terms with a shitton. Feeling pretty much IDGAF and almost non empathic, but hey, its great. In a way tho I feel expanding and writing now, reaching out.
Things about authority in the area of sex is growing, becoming unshackled. It comes natural now. In a way Im now knowing, thus meh over sex in a sense. Also, revisiting my "psychopath" period. Non caring, lack of empathy, self absorbed, grandiose, attitude, brilliant mind and sex god. Im also facing some past stuff such ad my interest dying down after pounding the poon. She has to stimulate me or its a mere fucktoy, which I wont reject, but yeah, its something. Fucking all on sight.
In the BDSM sense, I realize im a sadist. ( yeah yeah, heavy loaded but it is what it is )
Also, getting laid is ridiculous easy. Comes down to beliefs and mindset. Im dark but IDGAF now. Im purely going to value giving and offering and feelin the damn abubdance. People paying stuff for me makes me hella depressed and even powerless and traumatized. Ya I know. The impact of it is huge.
Im way into myself. Radiant. My whole vibe is strong and showing yet morals are somewhat overrated. Do whatever the fuck you wanna do. Deepening some stuff. Version A is now about purging and installing other stuff.
Im yet to come to terms to getting what I want. Obligations are overrated in a way. Ideals over practice and all that jazz. Like, your beliefs may hinder practical means. Just go get it. Realize what it is. Be unapologetic to it, apply it. Its a powerfull mindset from an almost objective stance. It opens the world once more.
Also, dreams involve real life people now that I know, I have tons of dreams, which I tend to remember better when waking up.
Feeling good further more ( 17-9-17 almost hundred days of DMSI??) yet again shattered to an extent due the remark of trauma and been given stuff. Oh well, what do?
Edit: the IOIs are constant yet subtle, quick glances, licking lips, stares, eyes making contact, body language such as dangling feet and other signs. the SubC brought this up. also, having a massive headache and lots of depression coming up, aswell as panicky anxety, bringing me to the brink of passing out. US is ran now, my whole body has this warm glow now over it, arund my head, hands, legs. Im slightly growing in interest of running B.
Horny as f#ck.
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Coming to terms with a shitton. Feeling pretty much IDGAF and almost non empathic, but hey, its great. In a way tho I feel expanding and writing now, reaching out.
Things about authority in the area of sex is growing, becoming unshackled. It comes natural now. In a way Im now knowing, thus meh over sex in a sense. Also, revisiting my "psychopath" period. Non caring, lack of empathy, self absorbed, grandiose, attitude, brilliant mind and sex god. Im also facing some past stuff such ad my interest dying down after pounding the poon. She has to stimulate me or its a mere fucktoy, which I wont reject, but yeah, its something. Fucking all on sight.
In the BDSM sense, I realize im a sadist. ( yeah yeah, heavy loaded but it is what it is )
Also, getting laid is ridiculous easy. Comes down to beliefs and mindset. Im dark but IDGAF now. Im purely going to value giving and offering and feelin the damn abubdance. People paying stuff for me makes me hella depressed and even powerless and traumatized. Ya I know. The impact of it is huge.
Im way into myself. Radiant. My whole vibe is strong and showing yet morals are somewhat overrated. Do whatever the fuck you wanna do. Deepening some stuff. Version A is now about purging and installing other stuff.
Im yet to come to terms to getting what I want. Obligations are overrated in a way. Ideals over practice and all that jazz. Like, your beliefs may hinder practical means. Just go get it. Realize what it is. Be unapologetic to it, apply it. Its a powerfull mindset from an almost objective stance. It opens the world once more.
Also, dreams involve real life people now that I know, I have tons of dreams, which I tend to remember better when waking up.
Feeling good further more ( 17-9-17 almost hundred days of DMSI??) yet again shattered to an extent due the remark of trauma and been given stuff. Oh well, what do?
Edit: the IOIs are constant yet subtle, quick glances, licking lips, stares, eyes making contact, body language such as dangling feet and other signs. the SubC brought this up. also, having a massive headache and lots of depression coming up, aswell as panicky anxety, bringing me to the brink of passing out. US is ran now, my whole body has this warm glow now over it, arund my head, hands, legs. Im slightly growing in interest of running B.
Horny as f#ck.
