Things are changing rapidly. I have so much stuff that I want, so many things to master and its all feeling so light. Im already there ydt it gives a sliiiight mismatch it seems. The healing is drilling and kicking in deep and in my mind I sound sexy. At the gym, after running high amount of loops yesterday I noticed I was socially isolated. Didnt care to much. Rather in my bubble. Motivation of training seems to lessen slightly aswell. Im fighting with this. Motivation seens low and it fucks up with my sense of being productive and active. Procrastination. Things scream in my face by the amount of obviousness. Of being there and getting there. Like my style, financials, goals, habits and brands. Still gonna use the livin shit outta instagram and platforms. Set up another brand and work through collab. I know the drill. Cakewalk.
Having instances and flashes of "A" and her speech police behaviour. Yeah I use the word f#ck. If it offends you, well f#ck you then. She already told at times how she was raised restrictive, but restricting me unleashes something in me causing to respond back. I let no-one restrict me.
My sense of women is lessened now. Libido is low. It seems like an internal resistance issue. Like a turn away response or something.
Furthermore much is looking up. Getting over and breaking through this hump will shatter and the change taking place ( well it does now, cause and effect the same ) is gonna be golden. Having also visions of high executioning of the script. Gonna trust the process. Fuck bein passive and apathic tho. Healin so strong it leaves me into place. Guess its the price of high end loops running.
Ps; had 2 women fight over me today all playing banter about some sandwich or something. It was clearly playfull like a boxing match. Walked in and directly isolated this other professional blond dressed in black and leather (?) Shoes through eye contact. It was again like a sort of unspoken game. Its more common now yet she stood out blond hair, half long, business dressed. Effin great. She was with 2 (?) Other guys, guess it was some sort of selling thing, commercialism, introducing some new product. The 2 women fighting over me was like a light toying but with flirty undertoning. Bring it. They werent my taste at all. Only fun and games for a bit.
My attitude changes also strongly, more free and IDGAF
Closing the deal again is and will be effortless..more clearly then ever I know what to do, how to do it. Also, libido seems to come back now in greater more force. All I know is that im shifting to the end game/result/goals...for now.
Also...facebook is exploding with friend requests of hot women ( fake probably but whatever ) gives me priority sense in abundance. SubC reference yeah but still. Gonna filter it more.
Having instances and flashes of "A" and her speech police behaviour. Yeah I use the word f#ck. If it offends you, well f#ck you then. She already told at times how she was raised restrictive, but restricting me unleashes something in me causing to respond back. I let no-one restrict me.
My sense of women is lessened now. Libido is low. It seems like an internal resistance issue. Like a turn away response or something.
Furthermore much is looking up. Getting over and breaking through this hump will shatter and the change taking place ( well it does now, cause and effect the same ) is gonna be golden. Having also visions of high executioning of the script. Gonna trust the process. Fuck bein passive and apathic tho. Healin so strong it leaves me into place. Guess its the price of high end loops running.
Ps; had 2 women fight over me today all playing banter about some sandwich or something. It was clearly playfull like a boxing match. Walked in and directly isolated this other professional blond dressed in black and leather (?) Shoes through eye contact. It was again like a sort of unspoken game. Its more common now yet she stood out blond hair, half long, business dressed. Effin great. She was with 2 (?) Other guys, guess it was some sort of selling thing, commercialism, introducing some new product. The 2 women fighting over me was like a light toying but with flirty undertoning. Bring it. They werent my taste at all. Only fun and games for a bit.
My attitude changes also strongly, more free and IDGAF
Closing the deal again is and will be effortless..more clearly then ever I know what to do, how to do it. Also, libido seems to come back now in greater more force. All I know is that im shifting to the end game/result/goals...for now.
Also...facebook is exploding with friend requests of hot women ( fake probably but whatever ) gives me priority sense in abundance. SubC reference yeah but still. Gonna filter it more.
