06-25-2017, 02:20 AM
Thanks Shannon.
Well I mostly got myself out of my funk and felt much better for the rest of the day. Went crazy topless dancing to jive/swing in the VIP area which was fantastic. There was still a part of me caring what people think, and another part enjoying the exhibitionism.
I was close to letting go; but not quite. I wasn't thinking about women though, I was just enjoying making a tit of myself which is massive progress for me.
I don't think that I've ever let go fully. If there's something the next version can do to assist with that, it would be helpful.
I know that Shannon has talked before about the biggest controllers being the one who also take huge risks.
I've still been slightly caught in my Celeb client (CC from now on) fantasy. She has been teasingly uncommunicative. Asked me what I was doing a couple of times by WhatsApp, but then didn't really respond. We still haven't met up yet. I'm just going to assume that's not going to happen. I wonder if she's nervous of meeting me in a social environment, or maybe she's just happy doing her own thing.
This is our last day at Glastonbury; back to reality tomorrow.
Slept reasonably well last night, but only had time for 6 loops of quiet US.
Going back to A for the next couple of weeks from tomorrow night, before I go on holiday again.
Well I mostly got myself out of my funk and felt much better for the rest of the day. Went crazy topless dancing to jive/swing in the VIP area which was fantastic. There was still a part of me caring what people think, and another part enjoying the exhibitionism.
I was close to letting go; but not quite. I wasn't thinking about women though, I was just enjoying making a tit of myself which is massive progress for me.
I don't think that I've ever let go fully. If there's something the next version can do to assist with that, it would be helpful.
I know that Shannon has talked before about the biggest controllers being the one who also take huge risks.
I've still been slightly caught in my Celeb client (CC from now on) fantasy. She has been teasingly uncommunicative. Asked me what I was doing a couple of times by WhatsApp, but then didn't really respond. We still haven't met up yet. I'm just going to assume that's not going to happen. I wonder if she's nervous of meeting me in a social environment, or maybe she's just happy doing her own thing.
This is our last day at Glastonbury; back to reality tomorrow.
Slept reasonably well last night, but only had time for 6 loops of quiet US.
Going back to A for the next couple of weeks from tomorrow night, before I go on holiday again.
Fear Is The Mind-killer
