05-10-2017, 12:10 AM
So... back on track.... I'm not in a rush to get rid of my relationship. For the most part it's really good. I know that I have a moan on here, but that's just me venting a bit. There are many good bits too, especially the companionship/partnership that many people never get to truly experience.
I still have a strong fear of the unknown without her. I have no idea who I am as a single person. A large part of me thinks that I would be an idiot to throw it away. I am NOT unhappy... I just think that things could be better maybe. It's a tricky position. It would be a lot easier if I was actually unhappy, or we were arguing, or she was unreasonable. Right now there's no stimulus to force me to take action either way.
I'm still waiting to see any external effects from DMSI, and until something changes there, or until I have changed so much internally that the choices become more obvious/natural I am going to sit right where I am.
We have a works night out on Saturday. The receptionist will be there. I'll see if there's any move towards flirtation. I'll be back on to B on the Friday night.
I still have a strong fear of the unknown without her. I have no idea who I am as a single person. A large part of me thinks that I would be an idiot to throw it away. I am NOT unhappy... I just think that things could be better maybe. It's a tricky position. It would be a lot easier if I was actually unhappy, or we were arguing, or she was unreasonable. Right now there's no stimulus to force me to take action either way.
I'm still waiting to see any external effects from DMSI, and until something changes there, or until I have changed so much internally that the choices become more obvious/natural I am going to sit right where I am.
We have a works night out on Saturday. The receptionist will be there. I'll see if there's any move towards flirtation. I'll be back on to B on the Friday night.
Fear Is The Mind-killer
