A little over two weeks on 3.1A and haven't updated in a while. For the last few Sunday's a leggy black-haired woman has been sitting with her son on the same pew that I usually sit at church. I caught her a few times checking me out, apart from that nothing out of the ordinary.
On the same day, I brought my son for skating at the local arena. When the skating ends, he likes to watch the Zamboni resurface the ice, which I allow him to do. I told him I would be in the lobby waiting for him. Two women came beside him at rink side and started to chat with each other. One was holding an baby, who couldn't be older than 6 months. As, I was watching my son behind the glass pane at a distance of approximately 50 ft away, the one holding the baby looked in my direction and we locked eyes. Throughout her conversation, she would quickly turn her head in my direction and give quick glances every 30 seconds or so. I've read somewhere that if you are the first to break eye contact that you give away some of your power. I kept looking at her, smiling slightly without showing teeth resolved not to break eye contact. This must have turned her on, because she started to take glances even more frequently. I wasn't worried or anything because if she felt annoyed or something I could always fall back on the fact that my son was beside her watching the Zamboni and I was just watching my son. Eventually, I got bored and called my son and we left.
That same night, I had a dream about one of the Eastern European woman at work. In the dream she was talking Russian to a man that I did not know. The next day I was scheduled to work with her to finalize a project in my office. As I was rationalizing with her some of my decisions, her cell rang. She took the call and started to speak Russian. After a few minutes, she finally hung up and after 10 min her cell rang again. She's says to me, I have to take this call it's my boyfriend. I left the office to give her privacy and came back 15 min later. As we resumed her cell rang after 5 min. I am assuming that it's him as she's speaking Russian again. At this point, I offer her to do the work some other time as we're getting interrupted at which point she accept.
I thought I would do some other work and headed towards her office to talk to another female colleague which she's sharing her office with. As I was talking to her colleague about work related stuff, the Russian women got all weird and I could tell that she was slightly upset as she was shunning me. I just ignored her and kept talking with the other woman.
That night I headed to the gym and decided not to be the first one to break eye contact if I came across a woman. In the gym, near the end of my workout, I lock eyes with a tall very good looking brunette, who in the past would not have given me a minute of her time. I look at her and eventually she looks down and away. The next day, I see her again this time she's sitting on a bench doing curls in front of a mirror. Both sides of the gym have mirrors, as I look into the opposite mirror, I can tell that she's discretely checking me out. It's been almost a week and I caught her more than once looking in my direction.
I've been having this don't screw with me attitude for awhile now to the point that I'm wondering if there isn't some sort of alpha programming in the sub. At work, there were 4 male colleagues walking towards me side by side and occupying the full width of the hallway. In the past I would have moved out of their way to let them pass as a matter of courtesy. This time I wasn't particularly feeling generous and was determined that I would not be the one caving in. I made eye contact with one of them and at the last minutes he moved behind the others to let me through. It felt like the parting of the red sea.
One day at the kitchen, one of the directors, a slim 50 year old woman exhibited all kinds of submissive behaviors (looking down and smiling and looking back up again) as we were chatting.
I was at the gym yesterday and started to think about my son. I was reminiscing on his first year, when I took him in his stroller for a walk at two in the morning because he could not sleep. I remembered that I picked him up as he was crying and try to console him. I became emotional and could barely contain myself. I started to get angry at how his disability was wreaking our lives.
At home, I had a few arguments with the wife, but held my ground as I'm drawing a line in the sand on what I am willing to accept from her behavior wise. Otherwise, she's been a chatter box. One day last week she brings up the subject of older women complaining about men. I told her all they need is a good F@** and that should take care of it. Then she brings up something else. Here's how the conversation went.
Her: Have you noticed how Ms B. is looking at you during our meetings? Ms B. is our son's school principal, she's in her mid 50's has been eye-f***ing me since the beginning of the school year. She's must have been a 8 or 9 during her younger years, but is taking care of herself and still looks very good. Because of our son's disability we're having bi-weekly meetings to evaluate progress which she's been dutifully attending
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Me: (playing dumb). No? What's up?
Her: She's been looking at you like a piece of meat. I'm pretty sure she's sliding on her own lube when the meetings are over.
My wife wasn't angry or anything she was just commenting but she's definitely noticing that I'm getting increased attention not only from the principal but from some of our neighbors as well.
I've been running the DMSI series since inception and I'm starting to feel that the end result (which if I recall correctly is getting the opposite sex to approach and ask for sex) is a million miles away. However, I'm not getting discouraged and will continue to run DMSI until results appear.
On the same day, I brought my son for skating at the local arena. When the skating ends, he likes to watch the Zamboni resurface the ice, which I allow him to do. I told him I would be in the lobby waiting for him. Two women came beside him at rink side and started to chat with each other. One was holding an baby, who couldn't be older than 6 months. As, I was watching my son behind the glass pane at a distance of approximately 50 ft away, the one holding the baby looked in my direction and we locked eyes. Throughout her conversation, she would quickly turn her head in my direction and give quick glances every 30 seconds or so. I've read somewhere that if you are the first to break eye contact that you give away some of your power. I kept looking at her, smiling slightly without showing teeth resolved not to break eye contact. This must have turned her on, because she started to take glances even more frequently. I wasn't worried or anything because if she felt annoyed or something I could always fall back on the fact that my son was beside her watching the Zamboni and I was just watching my son. Eventually, I got bored and called my son and we left.
That same night, I had a dream about one of the Eastern European woman at work. In the dream she was talking Russian to a man that I did not know. The next day I was scheduled to work with her to finalize a project in my office. As I was rationalizing with her some of my decisions, her cell rang. She took the call and started to speak Russian. After a few minutes, she finally hung up and after 10 min her cell rang again. She's says to me, I have to take this call it's my boyfriend. I left the office to give her privacy and came back 15 min later. As we resumed her cell rang after 5 min. I am assuming that it's him as she's speaking Russian again. At this point, I offer her to do the work some other time as we're getting interrupted at which point she accept.
I thought I would do some other work and headed towards her office to talk to another female colleague which she's sharing her office with. As I was talking to her colleague about work related stuff, the Russian women got all weird and I could tell that she was slightly upset as she was shunning me. I just ignored her and kept talking with the other woman.
That night I headed to the gym and decided not to be the first one to break eye contact if I came across a woman. In the gym, near the end of my workout, I lock eyes with a tall very good looking brunette, who in the past would not have given me a minute of her time. I look at her and eventually she looks down and away. The next day, I see her again this time she's sitting on a bench doing curls in front of a mirror. Both sides of the gym have mirrors, as I look into the opposite mirror, I can tell that she's discretely checking me out. It's been almost a week and I caught her more than once looking in my direction.
I've been having this don't screw with me attitude for awhile now to the point that I'm wondering if there isn't some sort of alpha programming in the sub. At work, there were 4 male colleagues walking towards me side by side and occupying the full width of the hallway. In the past I would have moved out of their way to let them pass as a matter of courtesy. This time I wasn't particularly feeling generous and was determined that I would not be the one caving in. I made eye contact with one of them and at the last minutes he moved behind the others to let me through. It felt like the parting of the red sea.
One day at the kitchen, one of the directors, a slim 50 year old woman exhibited all kinds of submissive behaviors (looking down and smiling and looking back up again) as we were chatting.
I was at the gym yesterday and started to think about my son. I was reminiscing on his first year, when I took him in his stroller for a walk at two in the morning because he could not sleep. I remembered that I picked him up as he was crying and try to console him. I became emotional and could barely contain myself. I started to get angry at how his disability was wreaking our lives.
At home, I had a few arguments with the wife, but held my ground as I'm drawing a line in the sand on what I am willing to accept from her behavior wise. Otherwise, she's been a chatter box. One day last week she brings up the subject of older women complaining about men. I told her all they need is a good F@** and that should take care of it. Then she brings up something else. Here's how the conversation went.
Her: Have you noticed how Ms B. is looking at you during our meetings? Ms B. is our son's school principal, she's in her mid 50's has been eye-f***ing me since the beginning of the school year. She's must have been a 8 or 9 during her younger years, but is taking care of herself and still looks very good. Because of our son's disability we're having bi-weekly meetings to evaluate progress which she's been dutifully attending
.Me: (playing dumb). No? What's up?
Her: She's been looking at you like a piece of meat. I'm pretty sure she's sliding on her own lube when the meetings are over.
My wife wasn't angry or anything she was just commenting but she's definitely noticing that I'm getting increased attention not only from the principal but from some of our neighbors as well.
I've been running the DMSI series since inception and I'm starting to feel that the end result (which if I recall correctly is getting the opposite sex to approach and ask for sex) is a million miles away. However, I'm not getting discouraged and will continue to run DMSI until results appear.
INTJ
