10/09/2016
Went to Wall Mart tonight and ended up paying my purchase at a cash manned by a really attractive Chinese cashier. She bagged my purchase and as I was about to leave. I commented that her English was impecable. I thought that she just immigrated from China because based on her name tag she did not have an English first name. She immediately opened up and told me that she was born in this country. She went on and on talking my ear off for about 5 minutes. As she did, she was smilling, touching me and doing the whole preening routine. I had to break it off as the lineup was getting bigger and I could see from the corner of my eye that her supervisor was giving her dagger eyes. I did not want her to get in trouble.
11/09/2016
Woke up this morning feeling really down. I am having really bad negative thoughts in the last few days. Regardless, I am planning to push through this. Some weird stuff happened today. Went to the park this afternoon and as I dealt with the gate attendant, the security guard, which I know is a lesbian was giving me all those IOI's. Later on, on the trail, I meet another lesbian couple with a child. I started to chat one of them because they were speaking French which is my native tongue. Again, I can see all these IOI's from her partner as I was chatting. The guard is decent looking, but the other one was not particularly attractive. Otherwise, I got IOI's from a couple of Asian women who I believe / hope are heterosexual.
Edit: still trying to figure how to type on my phone. Auto correct is throwing me out for a loop
Went to Wall Mart tonight and ended up paying my purchase at a cash manned by a really attractive Chinese cashier. She bagged my purchase and as I was about to leave. I commented that her English was impecable. I thought that she just immigrated from China because based on her name tag she did not have an English first name. She immediately opened up and told me that she was born in this country. She went on and on talking my ear off for about 5 minutes. As she did, she was smilling, touching me and doing the whole preening routine. I had to break it off as the lineup was getting bigger and I could see from the corner of my eye that her supervisor was giving her dagger eyes. I did not want her to get in trouble.
11/09/2016
Woke up this morning feeling really down. I am having really bad negative thoughts in the last few days. Regardless, I am planning to push through this. Some weird stuff happened today. Went to the park this afternoon and as I dealt with the gate attendant, the security guard, which I know is a lesbian was giving me all those IOI's. Later on, on the trail, I meet another lesbian couple with a child. I started to chat one of them because they were speaking French which is my native tongue. Again, I can see all these IOI's from her partner as I was chatting. The guard is decent looking, but the other one was not particularly attractive. Otherwise, I got IOI's from a couple of Asian women who I believe / hope are heterosexual.
Edit: still trying to figure how to type on my phone. Auto correct is throwing me out for a loop
