09-02-2016, 04:36 AM
This is my first post, since starting on 2.3. I realized that it will be too late to provide meaningful insight for Shannon. I was really busy at work and with the board going down a couple of times, I could not find the time to post or read. Overall, my 2.3 run was way less successful than the previous versions. At the beginning of the run, I felt conflicted and felt anxious, which slowly faded away as time went by. The sub had more impact with men than women. The daily details below based on notes that I took:
22/08/2016
First day of running v2.3. I accidentally left the playback function on while playing US at night and as a result, I woke up completely wasted. Dragged myself to work and ended up at the sushi place for lunch. Had tempura shrimps for lunch as I generally don't fancy raw meat. Nothing happened there, absolutely no IOI's from females. I felt invisible. The large meal just about finished me off. I went back to work and felt so tired that it took copious amounts of caffeine just to make it through the day. I was so tired that I skipped gym and went straight home to sleep, which is unusual for me.
23/08/2016
At the gym tonight, a woman who generally comes with her boyfriend came alone tonight kept checking me out. Went to the grocery store afterwards and as soon as I came through the doors I caught the eye of the of the cashier who kept looking at me as I went through the aisles looking for food. When I was done, I decided to pay at her till. She greets me with this huge smile and makes sure to touch me several times during my time there. One thing that I've notice while there is that on two separate occasions, two younger girls, must have been less than 10 years kept staring at me. Very unnerving. I just ignored them.
24/08/2016
At work today, one of my female colleagues dropped by for a chat. She usually have this look down smiling submissive look, but not today. At the gym, men are more chatty and initiating conversations, which is unusual as most go about their business working out and leave.
25/08/2016
Completed my seven loops in the afternoon today and got this sense of euphoria washing over me. I got horny as hell to the point that I was uncomfortable. All I could think about was which of my attractive co worker I could f###. I decided to take a walk out of the office to see if that would change my mind. Big mistake, I caught myself leering at some of my co workers butt and wisely decided to head back to the office before I did something I would later regret. Overall, I felt invisible at work today. No IOI's from women that would validate my inner state.
Went to the gym afterwards, again I felt completely invisible to women, but not to men. Men were really accommodating. For example, strangers came by to say goodbye as they left. On another instance, another said to me. "Please let me get out of the way while you are working out, so I don't bother you". I was inquiring about the availability of a machine that a man, twice my size was using. He meekly responded "I just have one more set to go and I'll do it right away".
26/08/2016 and 27/08/2016
Nothing to report today, but can definitely feel the aura kickin in.
28/08/2016
Went to church today and spotted the red head about 3 aisles from me. I guess she decided to keep her distances since she got DMSI'ied last week. No blatant IOI's to report apart from a few smiles. Went to the park for a stroll with my son. I was feeling really down. Seemed like I'm becoming a different person.
29/08/2016
Back to work today. while talking with a woman at work, another walked by a gave me this look of repulsion. I felt really hot when the aura was in full swing. I was in a meeting with another colleague that I was helping out. I asked him if he was warm. He responded that he felt fine. I was sweating profusely like I was in a sauna and had to asked him to open the windows of his office to improve air circulation so I could cool down.
30/08/2016
Although, I felt on cloud nine most of the day. I have a feeling that the aura is overpowering and turning most women off. I feel that they are sensing this weird vibe coming from me. One of the more perceptive female colleague came to see me and asked if I was angry. I told her no, and she responded "well somehow you look angry". Most of the woman I talked to quickly rush and wrap up conversations and leave. I had the same response with the cute cashier at the pharmacy. I will try to decrease the number of loops to 5 to see if I get better responses from females.
31/08/2016
Down to 5 loops, felt good this morning while driving to work. Got a few stares from a secretary who came back from maternity leave. But overall, I feel that something is odd with my response to this sub, as I sense that most women I interact with get uncomfortable and want to end conversations as quickly as possible. I was at the automated check out tonight at the grocery store when I needed help with an item that could not be scanned. I call the female attendant over and as soon as she's done with me she quickly takes off and heads towards the other end of the store leaving the automated check off unattended.
I don't want to alienate females this way. I think that I need the healing modules from 2.2 to things to work properly. So tonight, I will run 2 loops of 2.2 to get the healing and will run 4 loops of 2.3 during the day to maximize the aura.
01/09/2016
Well, back to work one day after the start of the new regimen. It made a world of a difference. Things are back to what they were before the start of the 2.3 run. Females don't seem to sense this weird vibe coming off me and are more chatty when I interact with them. I see a lot of them adjusting adjusting jewelry, fixing their clothes, and smiling comfortably when talking with them. The colleague who gave me this look of repulsion earlier in the week, which I've been ignoring, even dropped by to chat. Went to the gym late tonight and the gym was practically empty apart from a couple of men and 4 women. IOI's from 2 of them were blatant. On two separate occasions, they untied their hair and tossed their hair while staring at me. I will keep on listening to 2.2 while sleeping and 2.3 during the day to see if the effects sticks.
22/08/2016
First day of running v2.3. I accidentally left the playback function on while playing US at night and as a result, I woke up completely wasted. Dragged myself to work and ended up at the sushi place for lunch. Had tempura shrimps for lunch as I generally don't fancy raw meat. Nothing happened there, absolutely no IOI's from females. I felt invisible. The large meal just about finished me off. I went back to work and felt so tired that it took copious amounts of caffeine just to make it through the day. I was so tired that I skipped gym and went straight home to sleep, which is unusual for me.
23/08/2016
At the gym tonight, a woman who generally comes with her boyfriend came alone tonight kept checking me out. Went to the grocery store afterwards and as soon as I came through the doors I caught the eye of the of the cashier who kept looking at me as I went through the aisles looking for food. When I was done, I decided to pay at her till. She greets me with this huge smile and makes sure to touch me several times during my time there. One thing that I've notice while there is that on two separate occasions, two younger girls, must have been less than 10 years kept staring at me. Very unnerving. I just ignored them.
24/08/2016
At work today, one of my female colleagues dropped by for a chat. She usually have this look down smiling submissive look, but not today. At the gym, men are more chatty and initiating conversations, which is unusual as most go about their business working out and leave.
25/08/2016
Completed my seven loops in the afternoon today and got this sense of euphoria washing over me. I got horny as hell to the point that I was uncomfortable. All I could think about was which of my attractive co worker I could f###. I decided to take a walk out of the office to see if that would change my mind. Big mistake, I caught myself leering at some of my co workers butt and wisely decided to head back to the office before I did something I would later regret. Overall, I felt invisible at work today. No IOI's from women that would validate my inner state.
Went to the gym afterwards, again I felt completely invisible to women, but not to men. Men were really accommodating. For example, strangers came by to say goodbye as they left. On another instance, another said to me. "Please let me get out of the way while you are working out, so I don't bother you". I was inquiring about the availability of a machine that a man, twice my size was using. He meekly responded "I just have one more set to go and I'll do it right away".
26/08/2016 and 27/08/2016
Nothing to report today, but can definitely feel the aura kickin in.
28/08/2016
Went to church today and spotted the red head about 3 aisles from me. I guess she decided to keep her distances since she got DMSI'ied last week. No blatant IOI's to report apart from a few smiles. Went to the park for a stroll with my son. I was feeling really down. Seemed like I'm becoming a different person.
29/08/2016
Back to work today. while talking with a woman at work, another walked by a gave me this look of repulsion. I felt really hot when the aura was in full swing. I was in a meeting with another colleague that I was helping out. I asked him if he was warm. He responded that he felt fine. I was sweating profusely like I was in a sauna and had to asked him to open the windows of his office to improve air circulation so I could cool down.
30/08/2016
Although, I felt on cloud nine most of the day. I have a feeling that the aura is overpowering and turning most women off. I feel that they are sensing this weird vibe coming from me. One of the more perceptive female colleague came to see me and asked if I was angry. I told her no, and she responded "well somehow you look angry". Most of the woman I talked to quickly rush and wrap up conversations and leave. I had the same response with the cute cashier at the pharmacy. I will try to decrease the number of loops to 5 to see if I get better responses from females.
31/08/2016
Down to 5 loops, felt good this morning while driving to work. Got a few stares from a secretary who came back from maternity leave. But overall, I feel that something is odd with my response to this sub, as I sense that most women I interact with get uncomfortable and want to end conversations as quickly as possible. I was at the automated check out tonight at the grocery store when I needed help with an item that could not be scanned. I call the female attendant over and as soon as she's done with me she quickly takes off and heads towards the other end of the store leaving the automated check off unattended.
I don't want to alienate females this way. I think that I need the healing modules from 2.2 to things to work properly. So tonight, I will run 2 loops of 2.2 to get the healing and will run 4 loops of 2.3 during the day to maximize the aura.
01/09/2016
Well, back to work one day after the start of the new regimen. It made a world of a difference. Things are back to what they were before the start of the 2.3 run. Females don't seem to sense this weird vibe coming off me and are more chatty when I interact with them. I see a lot of them adjusting adjusting jewelry, fixing their clothes, and smiling comfortably when talking with them. The colleague who gave me this look of repulsion earlier in the week, which I've been ignoring, even dropped by to chat. Went to the gym late tonight and the gym was practically empty apart from a couple of men and 4 women. IOI's from 2 of them were blatant. On two separate occasions, they untied their hair and tossed their hair while staring at me. I will keep on listening to 2.2 while sleeping and 2.3 during the day to see if the effects sticks.
INTJ
