04-20-2023, 01:03 PM
6 loops today (Day 1 of 4 of cycle 4)
I've gotten accustomed to girls looking at me. It's basically a given at this point. Have had some cases where they give a big grin, but mostly, the girls just usually stare for prolonged periods of time, especially on initial eye contact. When far away, they'll exchange eye contact with me for seconds at a time, as if they're mesmerized. When I get closer, they try avoiding eye contact. Likely because a) they have a boyfriend and don't want to risk that relationship and b) so they appear high-status and put me in the position to chase. With the girls I've noticed the most reactions from (staring, frequent peeks while they think I'm not looking), they are almost all in relationships. Otherwise, they are 8s, 9s, 10s who want to be chased and play hard to get. Overall though, I know these girls want me to approach them, I just choose not to. Not because I'm afraid to talk to them (I feel pretty good about my conversation skills) but because I know my mind is going to find a way to get in the way or just simply shut down unexplainably.
With that being said, I don't notice a huge difference from 5 to 6 loops today but usually days 2 and 3 of the cycle yield the best results. Also, I tried exploring option #3 for the past 3 days and... I've got nothing. Either they're too expensive, are scams or simply don't respond (outdated phone numbers). Also, ever since exploring option #3, my days have been miserable. Didn't want to talk to anyone, very antisocial, decreased confidence, etc. Almost like a storm was brewing in my head. But today ever since taking a break from exploring option #3, I've felt back to my normal self again. It's crazy the lengths your mind will go to to try and stop you from the things you fear... At this point though, I am working to save enough money to make this happen. I'm hoping I can get this to happen before the school year is over so I can see a before and after effect of my fears around sex dissolved when using X4A-1000. Hopefully I can make it happen. We will have to see... On a side note, I've made an extra unexpected $90 the past couple of days so maybe UMS is trying to help...
@Shannon I'm interested to hear your theory on a possible "breakthrough" you were talking about. If I were to "breakthrough by increasing to 9 loops how would that work?
I've gotten accustomed to girls looking at me. It's basically a given at this point. Have had some cases where they give a big grin, but mostly, the girls just usually stare for prolonged periods of time, especially on initial eye contact. When far away, they'll exchange eye contact with me for seconds at a time, as if they're mesmerized. When I get closer, they try avoiding eye contact. Likely because a) they have a boyfriend and don't want to risk that relationship and b) so they appear high-status and put me in the position to chase. With the girls I've noticed the most reactions from (staring, frequent peeks while they think I'm not looking), they are almost all in relationships. Otherwise, they are 8s, 9s, 10s who want to be chased and play hard to get. Overall though, I know these girls want me to approach them, I just choose not to. Not because I'm afraid to talk to them (I feel pretty good about my conversation skills) but because I know my mind is going to find a way to get in the way or just simply shut down unexplainably.
With that being said, I don't notice a huge difference from 5 to 6 loops today but usually days 2 and 3 of the cycle yield the best results. Also, I tried exploring option #3 for the past 3 days and... I've got nothing. Either they're too expensive, are scams or simply don't respond (outdated phone numbers). Also, ever since exploring option #3, my days have been miserable. Didn't want to talk to anyone, very antisocial, decreased confidence, etc. Almost like a storm was brewing in my head. But today ever since taking a break from exploring option #3, I've felt back to my normal self again. It's crazy the lengths your mind will go to to try and stop you from the things you fear... At this point though, I am working to save enough money to make this happen. I'm hoping I can get this to happen before the school year is over so I can see a before and after effect of my fears around sex dissolved when using X4A-1000. Hopefully I can make it happen. We will have to see... On a side note, I've made an extra unexpected $90 the past couple of days so maybe UMS is trying to help...
@Shannon I'm interested to hear your theory on a possible "breakthrough" you were talking about. If I were to "breakthrough by increasing to 9 loops how would that work?
