Clamshell's weekly journal

[Shannon]

Clamshell, you sound as if you're not getting much benefit from the programs at all. The only way that happens is through resistance. Do you find yourself resistant in other directions as well? It would seem to me that you may have to deal with some sort of blockage before you can move forward. Can you think of anything that might be happening along those lines?

For instance, a deep seated core of fear over a long since past childhood trauma might cause an internal "lockup" which resists any and all changes, out of misdirected fear. Couple that with a strong personality, and you have a recipe for stagnation and frustration, until that core is defused and released.

Is it possible that this is what's happening to you?