12-13-2019, 07:08 AM
So it’s been a while since I’ve journaled. It’s hard to describe how I’m feeling lately but lately I’ve just felt OK. I haven’t felt anything particularly bad no real depression in the last few weeks or anything. Although the stress of work has been kind of take it off my shoulders lately as the job is about to come to An end and I have to take some time off of work because I just had a hernia repair surgery.
Fortunately for me in terms of dealing with whatever I’m feeling beneath the surface. I have actually started to realize better than ever before that my best friend is somebody who I can confide in. He just recently came out of a divorce but has stated to me that Although the relationship was toxic to a certain extent he stated that he has come to a great awareness about mental health and the importance of emphasis on it. We have been hanging out much more regularly Since he and his wife split up. Not to mention he has also been confiding in me about things that he has been feeling when he was in the relationship and even things regarding his family. I have confided in him about some of the thoughts that I’ve had and things that I’ve been feeling whether it’s with family work or just other wounds that I might be dealing with Regarding things with my parents particularly my dad or things that we both had to deal with in grade school (we went to the same grade school) in terms of a lot of the bullies we had to deal with and just the toxic environment in general that our grade school was. Last time we hung out another friend from our circle in grade school joined us which I really appreciate it because I think he dealt with the brunt of the bullying and we just talked about a lot of things. Yo I wouldn’t say it was one of those things where we were crying and pulling out tissues. But being able to talk openly about our thoughts is definitely a very refreshing thing. I think instead of relying on a therapist (although I don’t wanna totally rule out that option) I definitely feel like it’s very therapeutic to speak with close friends who listen.
Fortunately for me in terms of dealing with whatever I’m feeling beneath the surface. I have actually started to realize better than ever before that my best friend is somebody who I can confide in. He just recently came out of a divorce but has stated to me that Although the relationship was toxic to a certain extent he stated that he has come to a great awareness about mental health and the importance of emphasis on it. We have been hanging out much more regularly Since he and his wife split up. Not to mention he has also been confiding in me about things that he has been feeling when he was in the relationship and even things regarding his family. I have confided in him about some of the thoughts that I’ve had and things that I’ve been feeling whether it’s with family work or just other wounds that I might be dealing with Regarding things with my parents particularly my dad or things that we both had to deal with in grade school (we went to the same grade school) in terms of a lot of the bullies we had to deal with and just the toxic environment in general that our grade school was. Last time we hung out another friend from our circle in grade school joined us which I really appreciate it because I think he dealt with the brunt of the bullying and we just talked about a lot of things. Yo I wouldn’t say it was one of those things where we were crying and pulling out tissues. But being able to talk openly about our thoughts is definitely a very refreshing thing. I think instead of relying on a therapist (although I don’t wanna totally rule out that option) I definitely feel like it’s very therapeutic to speak with close friends who listen.
“When you change yourself...you change the world”
-Silvera, Gojira
-Silvera, Gojira
