02-15-2019, 04:05 PM
Stage 5, Day 8:
Two strange occurrences happened with money today. First, my job check wasn’t direct deposited. I couldn’t even see my pay statement for over 12 hours in ADP. Yet, I didn’t panic and wasn’t as stressed out about this as I would’ve been a few months ago. I still haven’t been paid but I’ve at least got news that at the latest I’ll have the money by Tuesday. I was unusually calm considering the situation.
The second strange occurrence was really more to do with my reaction. I got my tax return, which btw I’m missing a few hundred dollars of, and yet I’m not angry or running up a wall to figure out why it’s short a few hundred. In fact, I’m not even excited to see it there, it’s just numbers on a screen to me. No idea where the hell this nonchalant attitude about money is coming from. The old me would’ve been excited as hell to get the refund, but of course pissed that it’s short. The old me would be seething with anger all day about my missing paycheck...and yet, pretty much no reaction besides a tranquil sense of gratitude that at least I had some money come in today. Wondering if I’m experiencing TID from the future me that’s already financially stable and unconcerned about money. Only explanation I could come up with.
Two strange occurrences happened with money today. First, my job check wasn’t direct deposited. I couldn’t even see my pay statement for over 12 hours in ADP. Yet, I didn’t panic and wasn’t as stressed out about this as I would’ve been a few months ago. I still haven’t been paid but I’ve at least got news that at the latest I’ll have the money by Tuesday. I was unusually calm considering the situation.
The second strange occurrence was really more to do with my reaction. I got my tax return, which btw I’m missing a few hundred dollars of, and yet I’m not angry or running up a wall to figure out why it’s short a few hundred. In fact, I’m not even excited to see it there, it’s just numbers on a screen to me. No idea where the hell this nonchalant attitude about money is coming from. The old me would’ve been excited as hell to get the refund, but of course pissed that it’s short. The old me would be seething with anger all day about my missing paycheck...and yet, pretty much no reaction besides a tranquil sense of gratitude that at least I had some money come in today. Wondering if I’m experiencing TID from the future me that’s already financially stable and unconcerned about money. Only explanation I could come up with.
