08-05-2016, 04:53 AM
day 115:
I was letting my mind wonder this morning and at one point started thinking about this one negative memory. It was at the sales place where I used to work, it's a very high testosterone environment, basically everything that you see in movies. There was this one incident with a guy who was overstepping a lot of boundaries with me, he got fired eventually because of his bad performance, but I never really knew how to stood up for myself. This made me very angry and emotional in the past and kept following me. Often when I was in a low mood I would randomly start thinking about it and that would get me down even further.
This morning however I had 0 emotional reaction to it. First I thought that I should stop thinking about it or I'll just get myself angry, but I noticed that I couldn't give a shit even if I did keep thinking about it.
I was letting my mind wonder this morning and at one point started thinking about this one negative memory. It was at the sales place where I used to work, it's a very high testosterone environment, basically everything that you see in movies. There was this one incident with a guy who was overstepping a lot of boundaries with me, he got fired eventually because of his bad performance, but I never really knew how to stood up for myself. This made me very angry and emotional in the past and kept following me. Often when I was in a low mood I would randomly start thinking about it and that would get me down even further.
This morning however I had 0 emotional reaction to it. First I thought that I should stop thinking about it or I'll just get myself angry, but I noticed that I couldn't give a shit even if I did keep thinking about it.
