05-04-2016, 01:29 PM
Dreams are pretty vivid and consistent on E2, unlike on ASC. Had this dream about being somewhere familiar and this girl (I'd say around 19-22) was sleeping naked. She kept making eye contact with me and then stood up with blanked barely covering her. I heard her mumble something like: "Life is too short for regrets, I want to give you a gift". After that she dropped her blanked and I was filled with this incredibly severe panic attack that was crushing my chest. I woke up still feeling the panic attack, but it slowly faded.
This is something that actually happens when I get even a little bit intimate with a girl like slight touching or being in each other's comfort zone (the anxiety, not the blanket dropping).
I've been doing less hours since E2 seems to drain me with high amount of hours, I'll see how it will go with 14-18h per day.
Still reading the book "reality transurfing" and trying to apply the principles, especially of being more conscious about what script is running in my head and if negative then try to flip it.
I started thinking about how my confidence has been during my life and I don't think it's ever been as high as it was when I was practising muay thai. I want to get into some sort of physical conditioning program for the summer so I can get my strength up and then get back into the ring.
This is something that actually happens when I get even a little bit intimate with a girl like slight touching or being in each other's comfort zone (the anxiety, not the blanket dropping).
I've been doing less hours since E2 seems to drain me with high amount of hours, I'll see how it will go with 14-18h per day.
Still reading the book "reality transurfing" and trying to apply the principles, especially of being more conscious about what script is running in my head and if negative then try to flip it.
I started thinking about how my confidence has been during my life and I don't think it's ever been as high as it was when I was practising muay thai. I want to get into some sort of physical conditioning program for the summer so I can get my strength up and then get back into the ring.
