12-13-2020, 02:09 PM
Cycle 7, Day 2
I think my real fear is around Christmas and all alone. This is my 2ndyear alone. Last year was crazy and this year has been a little better. I remember as a child, no matter how bad the year was, Christmas always made up for it. Getting into the Christmas spirit lately has been impossible, since my family past away and no longer marriage. My ex-wife and her family use to go all out for Christmas. It is really hard not to think about it, since it happen for 17 years. I guess I am afraid it is always going to be like this. Since, I don’t know the future. I don’t know what to expect. I am also so fearful, since I am still not working and even temp agency have very little jobs the can offer.
Does anyone have advice how to feel better during this time? Maybe somebody has been through this?
I think my real fear is around Christmas and all alone. This is my 2ndyear alone. Last year was crazy and this year has been a little better. I remember as a child, no matter how bad the year was, Christmas always made up for it. Getting into the Christmas spirit lately has been impossible, since my family past away and no longer marriage. My ex-wife and her family use to go all out for Christmas. It is really hard not to think about it, since it happen for 17 years. I guess I am afraid it is always going to be like this. Since, I don’t know the future. I don’t know what to expect. I am also so fearful, since I am still not working and even temp agency have very little jobs the can offer.
Does anyone have advice how to feel better during this time? Maybe somebody has been through this?
