Aventus's Journey to Becoming More Real (DMSI V3.1)

[SargeMaximus]

The problem, as I see it, is that whatever you do reinforces the pattern. If you use haters and naysayers as motivation, you create a cycle of needing them for motivation. What happens when you get to a place where you don't care what other people think - about anything? The reason for being motivated disappears, and so does your motivation.

I can attest to that. lol.

[Aventus45]

The problem, as I see it, is that whatever you do reinforces the pattern. If you use haters and naysayers as motivation, you create a cycle of needing them for motivation. What happens when you get to a place where you don't care what other people think - about anything? The reason for being motivated disappears, and so does your motivation.

Half the reason why I was in the gym was because I had a burning rage and hatred that pushed me to new numbers and PRs. Now that I lost that internal rage, I havent had much motivation to keep going back.

[SargeMaximus]

The problem, as I see it, is that whatever you do reinforces the pattern. If you use haters and naysayers as motivation, you create a cycle of needing them for motivation. What happens when you get to a place where you don't care what other people think - about anything? The reason for being motivated disappears, and so does your motivation.

Half the reason why I was in the gym was because I had a burning rage and hatred that pushed me to new numbers and PRs. Now that I lost that internal rage, I havent had much motivation to keep going back.

Mhmmm. I had that too. Hate is the unrelenting power that fuels progress.

Still searching for a "good" replacement.

[CatMan]

The problem, as I see it, is that whatever you do reinforces the pattern. If you use haters and naysayers as motivation, you create a cycle of needing them for motivation. What happens when you get to a place where you don't care what other people think - about anything? The reason for being motivated disappears, and so does your motivation.

Half the reason why I was in the gym was because I had a burning rage and hatred that pushed me to new numbers and PRs. Now that I lost that internal rage, I havent had much motivation to keep going back.

Mhmmm. I had that too. Hate is the unrelenting power that fuels progress.

Still searching for a "good" replacement.

Be careful with that though...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Oy6DwHAi70

[SargeMaximus]

The problem, as I see it, is that whatever you do reinforces the pattern. If you use haters and naysayers as motivation, you create a cycle of needing them for motivation. What happens when you get to a place where you don't care what other people think - about anything? The reason for being motivated disappears, and so does your motivation.

Half the reason why I was in the gym was because I had a burning rage and hatred that pushed me to new numbers and PRs. Now that I lost that internal rage, I havent had much motivation to keep going back.

Mhmmm. I had that too. Hate is the unrelenting power that fuels progress.

Still searching for a "good" replacement.

Be careful with that though...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Oy6DwHAi70

I'm not trying to hide it, I'm a Darksider.

[Aventus45]

Stopped 3.0.1 yesterday.

Today I noticed that I'm not tapping into resentment and rage for motivation anymore. Awesome.

Just got paired with my mentor and the first thing she asked me is if I like drinking. Oooo perfect time for DMSI.

[Aventus45]

I met this Hispanic girl in my class recently and I started to talk to her more on facebook. Now in class, I forgot to bring my textbook so we shared hers. This places me within a foot of her. Our tables are angled towards each other so we are facing each other as well as being in close proximity to each other. We whisper to each other and connecting in class. She then started messing with my computers touchscreen and I was dropping innuendos as well as trying to make jokes.

The professor: So after the flood, Noah did what?
Me:-whispers- poppin babies
Her:- Turns to look at me with a flash of confusion and turned back to the professor-

She claims that she is perpetually tired and I see it. She knocks out in the middle of the lecture in the most subtle ways. She would do this stretch that she would bend backwards and it puffs her chest out. Considering how close we are, how the college desks are angled, and the way she stretches, and how many times she did it, I would say she is interested. Since the professor can yell like an angry german man I didnt do anything until much later. I think ill plan something with her next week.

[Aventus45]

Day 1
I had a dream that I was mugged my a large group of people whole were talking about the value of the things I had. They surrounded me and attacked me from all sides. They took my stuff and I arrive to my dorm. One tall and fat black dude breaks into my dorm and takes more of my stuff. At this point I literally felt the anger... And realized it was just a dream.

That's the start of DMSI 3.1 guys

[Aventus45]

Listened to today's loops, and it left me feeling like absolute death. Focus was off, energy was drained, and I was more careless than I would like to admit.Half a tab of modafinil didnt even help me. I then took a break and went outside to get some real food in my system and it resolved itself.

I forgot how much of an energy hog this sub is.

Edit: Aura kicks in and it feels like a gentle warmth. It kept me warm even though its a cold day and I was wearing a subpar amount of layers

[Aventus45]

so crowded subways trains usually have some semblance of personal space correct? Not with this ride!

The train was fairly occupied for an nyc train but when I arrived to this stop, the doors opened to a flood of people coming in. This busted black girl was the first to come in and she honed into my personal space like it was more crowded than it really was. It was easy less than a foot away despite having some space to back the hell up. like her chest was facing me and there was like a 5-6 inch gap between us.

The uncomfortable thing is the fact that people usually move in if they are forced to. this bitch zoomed the hell in! It made me uncomfortable real quick.

[Shannon]

Sarge... too sexy for his job... too sexy for his boss, so sexy he'll have to quiiiiiiitttttt.... lol

[SargeMaximus]

Sarge... too sexy for his job... too sexy for his boss, so sexy he'll have to quiiiiiiitttttt.... lol

Yeah man, the burdens that come with using your subs.

[Aventus45]

Sarge... too sexy for his job... too sexy for his boss, so sexy he'll have to quiiiiiiitttttt.... lol

Yeah man, the burdens that come with using your subs.

Wrong thread guys? LMFAO

[SargeMaximus]

Sarge... too sexy for his job... too sexy for his boss, so sexy he'll have to quiiiiiiitttttt.... lol

Yeah man, the burdens that come with using your subs.

Wrong thread guys? LMFAO

Oops, sorry man.

F*ckin' DMSI...