Another MLS Journal :p

[Nox]

Last night while getting ready to take a shower I remembered the movie Howl's Moving Castle.

My procrastination seems to stem from fear. All these years I thought I should just focus on getting rid of procrastination when really it went deeper than that.



I was clinging onto the internet last night as if my life depended on it. Then I had a another realization that I don't have to hide from myself anymore.

See when I'm on the internet I hang around the comments section and forums looking at what other folks have to say. I internalize what said so that I don't have an opinion or a personality. I do the same thing in real life I don't speak a lot nor do I really put myslef out there. Whatever is said I usually assume it's right. I don't think to much during conversations because once again don't want to put myself out there. I'm usually in daze when someone is talking and getting worse. I wonder why I'm scared of having my own voice. (I hope that makes sense)

Also I'm just figuring out that my emotional state has a lot to do with how I learn.
Maybe why my results are so different from the other journals. Then again I'm the only one actively posting about MLS.

Helps dissolve fear of learning, recall and/or recall-dependent situations (tests, etc.), and helps replace it with enjoyment in learning and demonstrating what has been learned.

Helps any fear, guilt or shame that might impede learning and recall be neutralized.

Recall of memories from all five senses, plus emotional experiences, is enhanced.

Helps dissolve faulty beliefs that disrupt or prevent ease of learning and recall, and learning at maximum speed.

Sounds like you're experiencing what the subliminal is designed to do. We all tend to focus on what we think we're gonna get as opposed to what the process of getting it entails. You're clearing out some baggage. You're doing an awesome job. I'm sorry the road is a bit bumpier than the map made it look. You'll get it through it and you'll be better at the end.