03-10-2016, 04:33 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-10-2016, 04:41 PM by Why So Serious?.)
Last night while getting ready to take a shower I remembered the movie Howl's Moving Castle.
My procrastination seems to stem from fear. All these years I thought I should just focus on getting rid of procrastination when really it went deeper than that.
I was clinging onto the internet last night as if my life depended on it. Then I had a another realization that I don't have to hide from myself anymore.
See when I'm on the internet I hang around the comments section and forums looking at what other folks have to say. I internalize what said so that I don't have an opinion or a personality. I do the same thing in real life I don't speak a lot nor do I really put myslef out there. Whatever is said I usually assume it's right. I don't think to much during conversations because once again don't want to put myself out there. I'm usually in daze when someone is talking and getting worse. I wonder why I'm scared of having my own voice.
(I hope that makes sense)
Also I'm just figuring out that my emotional state has a lot to do with how I learn.
Maybe why my results are so different from the other journals. Then again I'm the only one actively posting about MLS.
My procrastination seems to stem from fear. All these years I thought I should just focus on getting rid of procrastination when really it went deeper than that.
I was clinging onto the internet last night as if my life depended on it. Then I had a another realization that I don't have to hide from myself anymore.
See when I'm on the internet I hang around the comments section and forums looking at what other folks have to say. I internalize what said so that I don't have an opinion or a personality. I do the same thing in real life I don't speak a lot nor do I really put myslef out there. Whatever is said I usually assume it's right. I don't think to much during conversations because once again don't want to put myself out there. I'm usually in daze when someone is talking and getting worse. I wonder why I'm scared of having my own voice.
(I hope that makes sense)Also I'm just figuring out that my emotional state has a lot to do with how I learn.
Maybe why my results are so different from the other journals. Then again I'm the only one actively posting about MLS.
