07-15-2017, 12:30 AM
DMSI 3.1 ver. A / 2 loops per day / daily; no exceptions
Few days ago I was quite eager to start ver. B, I think I am on ver. A for 3 months now, maybe more. I do not know if that's enough or not but....
- I had a couple of days wondering if I should stop the sub, because "its not working / can't feel a thing/ time wasting / yada-yada-yada". Funny isn't it ? Now, now, sitting with my headphones on for 2 hours won't be the end of the earth, even if it's not working, well, I am always a type of personality who pushes to find out. Still, I cannot deny the toughts that I am questioning what I am doing.
- 1 Week after the above toughts, depresion, anger, pure fucking heatred towards my ... mom. I am not happy about this, had some wierd toughts of well, end it. Fuck, back to square one 3 months ago.
- I promissed my self, 1-2 weeks with no drama and I will switch to B; if there's drama, then I am staying on A.
Now, today, I am good. I do not know if the above if DMSI related; don't care. Still, toughts like this I will take them as healing. The problem was too much, too soon, too deep. DMSI A is working ? I don't know, don't care; I've stopped questioning this, even if there's a lullaby song hidden in Ver.A and its just a placebo effect I am gonna sit my ass down and eat this like I like it and mean it.
Few days ago I was quite eager to start ver. B, I think I am on ver. A for 3 months now, maybe more. I do not know if that's enough or not but....
- I had a couple of days wondering if I should stop the sub, because "its not working / can't feel a thing/ time wasting / yada-yada-yada". Funny isn't it ? Now, now, sitting with my headphones on for 2 hours won't be the end of the earth, even if it's not working, well, I am always a type of personality who pushes to find out. Still, I cannot deny the toughts that I am questioning what I am doing.
- 1 Week after the above toughts, depresion, anger, pure fucking heatred towards my ... mom. I am not happy about this, had some wierd toughts of well, end it. Fuck, back to square one 3 months ago.
- I promissed my self, 1-2 weeks with no drama and I will switch to B; if there's drama, then I am staying on A.
Now, today, I am good. I do not know if the above if DMSI related; don't care. Still, toughts like this I will take them as healing. The problem was too much, too soon, too deep. DMSI A is working ? I don't know, don't care; I've stopped questioning this, even if there's a lullaby song hidden in Ver.A and its just a placebo effect I am gonna sit my ass down and eat this like I like it and mean it.
