03-15-2014, 10:17 PM
Stage 5, Day 7,
I may have missed some hours in the night. Woke up at 9am, did one hour of guitar practice between then and work (1pm), and cooked my lunch before then as well.
At work, I started off with some insecurity (can't look people directly in the eye without getting a bit teary-eyed), and then I became very happy and laughing at everything, and a bit weird. The other girl I work with noticed this. We had some conversation about our preferences in partners and dating.
I bought my week's groceries, and tomorrow's cheat day stuff, I am very excited.
In the evening, I kept reading Millionaire Fastlane, watching Star Wars Episode V, and then did one hour of focused voice practice.
I got to a party around 10, and left around 2. A party is an area where I don't feel much power, but I got used to it. There were a couple girls with whom I would consider hooking up, there was one who was testing me, and I'd say that I passed pretty valiantly; "yes and.." is the best tactic. She made a joke about how I'm still pre-pubescent, or other knocks at me, and it didn't really phase me. But she left the party and I didn't see her again.
I did see the girl from a previous party; she still has her boyfriend. Oh well. She was the responsible one, her friend was the extremely drunken one. This other guy was telling me that it's cool to break it relationships in order to fuck the girl and leave it at that. That has got to be one of the stupidest things I've heard. He's like "If you break them up, it wasn't meant to be!". Oh well. Got to get some sleep to get a lot done for tomorrow.
I may have missed some hours in the night. Woke up at 9am, did one hour of guitar practice between then and work (1pm), and cooked my lunch before then as well.
At work, I started off with some insecurity (can't look people directly in the eye without getting a bit teary-eyed), and then I became very happy and laughing at everything, and a bit weird. The other girl I work with noticed this. We had some conversation about our preferences in partners and dating.
I bought my week's groceries, and tomorrow's cheat day stuff, I am very excited.
In the evening, I kept reading Millionaire Fastlane, watching Star Wars Episode V, and then did one hour of focused voice practice.
I got to a party around 10, and left around 2. A party is an area where I don't feel much power, but I got used to it. There were a couple girls with whom I would consider hooking up, there was one who was testing me, and I'd say that I passed pretty valiantly; "yes and.." is the best tactic. She made a joke about how I'm still pre-pubescent, or other knocks at me, and it didn't really phase me. But she left the party and I didn't see her again.
I did see the girl from a previous party; she still has her boyfriend. Oh well. She was the responsible one, her friend was the extremely drunken one. This other guy was telling me that it's cool to break it relationships in order to fuck the girl and leave it at that. That has got to be one of the stupidest things I've heard. He's like "If you break them up, it wasn't meant to be!". Oh well. Got to get some sleep to get a lot done for tomorrow.
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