01-09-2014, 07:24 PM
Stage 3, Day 8
I had a pretty great first half of the day, but the second day, I had experienced the negative side effects of less sleep. Got up at 5:50
Did my morning ritual, got to class, taking notes and whatnot. It's a class exclusively on research; I,m terrible at research, so I have to figure it out. This is the best opportunity to become very competent at it.
I go up and talk to some classmates which I've only seen but 3 months ago (keep in mind that all but 1 of my classmates are women). The cute one, which stays pretty quiet, was eyeing me. I kept a stare when she stared at me. I even caught her looking; she looks away when I turned away from her friend. She might just want me, but does she have a boyfriend? I should figure out a slick new way to figure out if a girl is single.
I'm probably going to invite the other girl, mentioned yesterday, out for coffee, or something casual. Dating classmates is something that I've never done, and must be done carefully. Dating a classmate is like a 5G subliminal; you can only date one at a time. Our group is super tight knit and small (under 60 people).
I go to the gym; the guys are respecting my space, moving, and asking permisson. Wasn't trying to be threatening or anything.
I go to home, eat my big lunch, shower, and then stuff my face on another heavy meal before I head to work at 3.
Work became a "let's feel all the negative spectrum of emotions. I felt grief, I felt anxious and uneasy, and I felt worked up, and then I felt extreme needy, specifically about the first girl. My brain is probably processing all this emotional readjustment.
I'm still not used to being looked at "like that" by women. But I'm pretty excited about the coming weeks.
My 'fear of success" thing has kicked on; I'm thinking "what if I DO get into a relationship with this girl? I'm trapped!!" lol. Or it might be that I'm going against some of the Brent Smith stuff, or the PUA stuff. Well, it's my hot body, I do what I want.
I had a pretty great first half of the day, but the second day, I had experienced the negative side effects of less sleep. Got up at 5:50
Did my morning ritual, got to class, taking notes and whatnot. It's a class exclusively on research; I,m terrible at research, so I have to figure it out. This is the best opportunity to become very competent at it.
I go up and talk to some classmates which I've only seen but 3 months ago (keep in mind that all but 1 of my classmates are women). The cute one, which stays pretty quiet, was eyeing me. I kept a stare when she stared at me. I even caught her looking; she looks away when I turned away from her friend. She might just want me, but does she have a boyfriend? I should figure out a slick new way to figure out if a girl is single.
I'm probably going to invite the other girl, mentioned yesterday, out for coffee, or something casual. Dating classmates is something that I've never done, and must be done carefully. Dating a classmate is like a 5G subliminal; you can only date one at a time. Our group is super tight knit and small (under 60 people).
I go to the gym; the guys are respecting my space, moving, and asking permisson. Wasn't trying to be threatening or anything.
I go to home, eat my big lunch, shower, and then stuff my face on another heavy meal before I head to work at 3.
Work became a "let's feel all the negative spectrum of emotions. I felt grief, I felt anxious and uneasy, and I felt worked up, and then I felt extreme needy, specifically about the first girl. My brain is probably processing all this emotional readjustment.
I'm still not used to being looked at "like that" by women. But I'm pretty excited about the coming weeks.
My 'fear of success" thing has kicked on; I'm thinking "what if I DO get into a relationship with this girl? I'm trapped!!" lol. Or it might be that I'm going against some of the Brent Smith stuff, or the PUA stuff. Well, it's my hot body, I do what I want.
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