12-06-2013, 10:58 PM
Stage 2, Day 11,
Today was a day of pure action; I went straight from 8:30 to 4:30 without a lunch, and pooled together a whole bunch of projects. My co-op is taking a brighter turn, and will likely have a very happy ending.
Speaking of happy endings, I had passed 6-7 days no fap, and finally gave in. I came without orgasm, which proofs the seperation. I already have a multiple orgasm program sitting on my laptop (Key Sound Orgasm; KSO for short), so I will work on retention while still having orgasms.
I went to an open mic. Invited a female friend along, and had a funny time trying to find the venue. I had literally no fear in performing. I'm now using earplugs to play live so that I can heard myself sing. The only zinger is that I can't hear the final product (my voice and guitar together); but it's my own zen. I was told by this girl that I improved in one weeks time; I haven't practiced in that one week! I haven't felt any fear related to my performing today.
Near the end of the event, me and the girl find a park bench outside and jam out to certain popular songs. Note that this is strictly platonic; she has a boyfriend, and I'm completely cool with that.
We had other people from the event who invited us on a staircase to jam with them. We jammed for another hour. It was fun. The whole event was a lot of fun.
Now I'm here to gather some final pieces for my project, and we're supposed to meet tomorrow morning. Goodbye, sleep!
Today was a day of pure action; I went straight from 8:30 to 4:30 without a lunch, and pooled together a whole bunch of projects. My co-op is taking a brighter turn, and will likely have a very happy ending.
Speaking of happy endings, I had passed 6-7 days no fap, and finally gave in. I came without orgasm, which proofs the seperation. I already have a multiple orgasm program sitting on my laptop (Key Sound Orgasm; KSO for short), so I will work on retention while still having orgasms.
I went to an open mic. Invited a female friend along, and had a funny time trying to find the venue. I had literally no fear in performing. I'm now using earplugs to play live so that I can heard myself sing. The only zinger is that I can't hear the final product (my voice and guitar together); but it's my own zen. I was told by this girl that I improved in one weeks time; I haven't practiced in that one week! I haven't felt any fear related to my performing today.
Near the end of the event, me and the girl find a park bench outside and jam out to certain popular songs. Note that this is strictly platonic; she has a boyfriend, and I'm completely cool with that.
We had other people from the event who invited us on a staircase to jam with them. We jammed for another hour. It was fun. The whole event was a lot of fun.
Now I'm here to gather some final pieces for my project, and we're supposed to meet tomorrow morning. Goodbye, sleep!
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