Stage 3, Day 28,
Took most of the day to bus home.
I did pMemory lessons 57 and 58, as they are very short, and put together, they make up about the effort required for one lesson. After tomorrow, I'll be done, and I'll be able to put pMemory into practice.
I'm finalizing the points for the checklist system that I'll be following in Quarter 2; I've resolved to throw in what might be the most difficult goals for me, which is reducing my online time to the point of cutting it out. This means YouTube, Facebook, controversial articles, comments sections, and yes, even Subliminal Talk. Starting Stage 4, I believe I'll be posting a weekly update instead of a daily update in order to save what likely amounts to an hour every week. That doesn't seem like a lot, but it pushes back the time I go to bed by at least 10 minutes, as well as looking at other peoples' threads, and all the emotional responses it might evoke in me. I'll probably set aside one day a week to indulge in all the distracting stuff.
Why?
I'm realizing that distraction is my Achilles' heel; not only does it dilute my efforts for my goals, it eats up so much time, and it also dulls me to whatever dissatisfactions I have with my life. I've gotten good at adding habits to my life, but removing something that has been present in my life for many years may be a challenge.
This is not only an indicator of discipline to be able to do this, but also will help me focus, help me work on what matters, and it is practice for the "real world", when I'll be self-employed, and no one will be looking over my shoulder. As far as I'm concerned, this could start this Wednesday, when I'm transitioning to new habits.
On day 8 of noFap. At times, it's hard to tell if I'm horny, or just have to pee.
Took most of the day to bus home.
I did pMemory lessons 57 and 58, as they are very short, and put together, they make up about the effort required for one lesson. After tomorrow, I'll be done, and I'll be able to put pMemory into practice.
I'm finalizing the points for the checklist system that I'll be following in Quarter 2; I've resolved to throw in what might be the most difficult goals for me, which is reducing my online time to the point of cutting it out. This means YouTube, Facebook, controversial articles, comments sections, and yes, even Subliminal Talk. Starting Stage 4, I believe I'll be posting a weekly update instead of a daily update in order to save what likely amounts to an hour every week. That doesn't seem like a lot, but it pushes back the time I go to bed by at least 10 minutes, as well as looking at other peoples' threads, and all the emotional responses it might evoke in me. I'll probably set aside one day a week to indulge in all the distracting stuff.
Why?
I'm realizing that distraction is my Achilles' heel; not only does it dilute my efforts for my goals, it eats up so much time, and it also dulls me to whatever dissatisfactions I have with my life. I've gotten good at adding habits to my life, but removing something that has been present in my life for many years may be a challenge.
This is not only an indicator of discipline to be able to do this, but also will help me focus, help me work on what matters, and it is practice for the "real world", when I'll be self-employed, and no one will be looking over my shoulder. As far as I'm concerned, this could start this Wednesday, when I'm transitioning to new habits.
On day 8 of noFap. At times, it's hard to tell if I'm horny, or just have to pee.
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