03-26-2015, 07:10 PM
Stage 3, Day 17,
Work was draining; I was very meek and unable to speak clearly a large portion of the time. Later in the day, I began to become depressed and lost a feeling of hope. This must be the programming; I've felt that this stage wasn't doing a whole lot.
I'm mildly worried about what will become of my life; I had a pretty hard realization that I'll die someday, and that I should do and achieve the things I want before I die, or else I might as well just kill myself lol.
I want the six month internship to be over so that I can start working on my life. And I'm also wishing that life will be kind to me in spite of my best efforts.
Work was draining; I was very meek and unable to speak clearly a large portion of the time. Later in the day, I began to become depressed and lost a feeling of hope. This must be the programming; I've felt that this stage wasn't doing a whole lot.
I'm mildly worried about what will become of my life; I had a pretty hard realization that I'll die someday, and that I should do and achieve the things I want before I die, or else I might as well just kill myself lol.
I want the six month internship to be over so that I can start working on my life. And I'm also wishing that life will be kind to me in spite of my best efforts.
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