Stage 5, Day 18
After several months of complaining...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQlIhraqL7o
Let's just say I'm still qualified to sing with Akon.
I broke a multi-year dry spell by having penetrative sex.
EXPLICIT CONTENT BELOW!!! NSFW!!
It was with the girl I was seeing in August, and I also saw her a few weeks ago. We met near my place after a pretty busy day, had coffee right down the street, talked, then walked back to my place. I was still dressed up from work, and so I had to undo a lot of clothes to get ourselves naked. She was very enthusiastic, and I was taking my sweet time.
She's a virgin and she was very tight; after 69, I could barely get a finger in her, and she was much more, let's say, "loose" than the other times, and she managed to get a couple of G-spot orgasms for the first time. I suggested that we try penetrative sex, and after some calm back and forth ("I'm not sure", "I'm nervous", "It might hurt"; which I took as "no, not yet"), I could tell that she was curious, and she eventually suggested I try going for it.
We took it slow, and used a lot of lube, and we eventually did it. She was in pain at the start, so I took it very easy and we took breaks, but she let me keep going despite the pain (which had me feel guilty). She eventually started feeling pleasure, and more than pain, so I was able to start humping and getting all of me in there (she loved it). I eventually came inside her (with condom), which was amazing.
It was a good experience; I think she had a good time (she shared her virginity with me), and I'll keep on seeing her.
Even while having sex, I was thinking to myself: "Was I really getting myself worked up about this?". That is to say, after this program I'll need to focus on business and my life goals instead of getting caught up with women. Women are fun, but they won't fulfill my life nearly as much as fulfilling my life goals (will use BASE + eventually BAMM).
After several months of complaining...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQlIhraqL7o
Let's just say I'm still qualified to sing with Akon.
I broke a multi-year dry spell by having penetrative sex.
EXPLICIT CONTENT BELOW!!! NSFW!!
It was with the girl I was seeing in August, and I also saw her a few weeks ago. We met near my place after a pretty busy day, had coffee right down the street, talked, then walked back to my place. I was still dressed up from work, and so I had to undo a lot of clothes to get ourselves naked. She was very enthusiastic, and I was taking my sweet time.
She's a virgin and she was very tight; after 69, I could barely get a finger in her, and she was much more, let's say, "loose" than the other times, and she managed to get a couple of G-spot orgasms for the first time. I suggested that we try penetrative sex, and after some calm back and forth ("I'm not sure", "I'm nervous", "It might hurt"; which I took as "no, not yet"), I could tell that she was curious, and she eventually suggested I try going for it.
We took it slow, and used a lot of lube, and we eventually did it. She was in pain at the start, so I took it very easy and we took breaks, but she let me keep going despite the pain (which had me feel guilty). She eventually started feeling pleasure, and more than pain, so I was able to start humping and getting all of me in there (she loved it). I eventually came inside her (with condom), which was amazing.
It was a good experience; I think she had a good time (she shared her virginity with me), and I'll keep on seeing her.
Even while having sex, I was thinking to myself: "Was I really getting myself worked up about this?". That is to say, after this program I'll need to focus on business and my life goals instead of getting caught up with women. Women are fun, but they won't fulfill my life nearly as much as fulfilling my life goals (will use BASE + eventually BAMM).
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