@Geodude,
"YOU'RE LYING TO ME, I NEVER HIT YOU!"
Stage 5, Day 14
Making some progress; I notice that whenever I do the Shreem Brzee (financial abundance) mantra, I can slow down any sort of negative mental rampage that I find myself in. VERY helpful. I got caught up in some bs about race and sex that I saw in the morning before work. Running on 5 hours sleep didn't help. So anyways, I did the mantra in 5 minute chunks, and was effectively able to do active meditation and stay present.
Then, my manager tells me to help carry some stuff for one of the out-of-town sales people (shows new merch to our stores). After a rather easy carry, he gives me a 10$ Starbucks gift card. I don't drink coffee, so I give to my friend/coworker for nothing at all. Later, I felt like drinking, and I have rum but no coke, in which case I ask him to buy me a Dr.Pepper bottle.
That detour sent me on a different way home, and on this busy road (at night, having rained), I find what looked like an iPod case and some paper. It was a iPhone with 2 theater tickets! Holy, how do I find the owner? I go into the nearest area (sports bar). Fortunately, the phone was unlocked, so I could text the person that appeared when I logged in. They were at that pub; I was texting his wife. The guy was very grateful, and bought me a beer. On an empty stomach, one pint was enough to have me feeling good.
Have been studying since that, and during BrainEv, I tapped on "I don't deserve...women-related stuff":
- I don't deserve women;
- I don't deserve to look at a woman;
- I don't deserve to speak to a woman;
- I don't deserve to be sexual with a woman;
- And so on and so forth;
That dug something up, and even after I stopped taping, more came up. So I unwedged something there. Nothing to report in terms of women lol.
"YOU'RE LYING TO ME, I NEVER HIT YOU!"
Stage 5, Day 14
Making some progress; I notice that whenever I do the Shreem Brzee (financial abundance) mantra, I can slow down any sort of negative mental rampage that I find myself in. VERY helpful. I got caught up in some bs about race and sex that I saw in the morning before work. Running on 5 hours sleep didn't help. So anyways, I did the mantra in 5 minute chunks, and was effectively able to do active meditation and stay present.
Then, my manager tells me to help carry some stuff for one of the out-of-town sales people (shows new merch to our stores). After a rather easy carry, he gives me a 10$ Starbucks gift card. I don't drink coffee, so I give to my friend/coworker for nothing at all. Later, I felt like drinking, and I have rum but no coke, in which case I ask him to buy me a Dr.Pepper bottle.
That detour sent me on a different way home, and on this busy road (at night, having rained), I find what looked like an iPod case and some paper. It was a iPhone with 2 theater tickets! Holy, how do I find the owner? I go into the nearest area (sports bar). Fortunately, the phone was unlocked, so I could text the person that appeared when I logged in. They were at that pub; I was texting his wife. The guy was very grateful, and bought me a beer. On an empty stomach, one pint was enough to have me feeling good.
Have been studying since that, and during BrainEv, I tapped on "I don't deserve...women-related stuff":
- I don't deserve women;
- I don't deserve to look at a woman;
- I don't deserve to speak to a woman;
- I don't deserve to be sexual with a woman;
- And so on and so forth;
That dug something up, and even after I stopped taping, more came up. So I unwedged something there. Nothing to report in terms of women lol.
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