Im growing more cold and calculative, maybe somewhat more shallow in terms of feelings, detached. Its something I notice the last few days, that I have episodes of feeling barely a thing, but just being highly logical. I can seduce someone but its almost like an simple observation, aswell as an almost shallow investment. neediness reduced further and less involvement. Im also getting more strategic and sort out what works and don't. Im growing more secure and give less of a fuck. Also more of an push-pull without falling into the attachment trap. I can see this working with multiple girls. I'm definitely growing in this and its an matter of time before this becomes more natural. For some reason I am thinking about Ben's journal when he texted with girls. I can see this evolve way further. Im aware of myself more as an person. Im not attached to girls now, not even the one i'm texting with. There is still some guilt which im aware about, some anxiety responses. It makes me kinda foggy to even bring it up, yet the multiple girls dating feels slightly outside my control, like becoming this attractive person and just being that. Yet at the same time some sort of sigma wolf, with an raw darker edge.
Its an strong opposition to isolation and AM6 even makes me more extravert, more open, thriving and go get attitude-ish. Like violent and forcefull raw dominance to go out and fuck hiding or any of that stuff.
I experience more gratititude and had an nice experience this morning, like some theme in line with AM6, as if the universe threw that at me.
My bodylanguage and walk has changed again in an more "go get no bullshit" demeanor. almost rushing like getting into an fight.
Im feeling restless, more iritated, yet avoid drama. If she gives drama I directly turn off and grow cold and silent, like not rewarding such bullshit behaviour. Still slightly conflicting.
Reading deeper in power structures and strategies. Am aware that an few reads and putting into practice is more valuable then reading lots. Expression is the rule now. Marking territory. Branding it. Also having reoccuring thoughts of the disruptive sigma aura and how it translates.
I aswell am more agressive at the gym, more dominant, more focussed and am contemplating about going "on" and run an cycle.
Its an strong opposition to isolation and AM6 even makes me more extravert, more open, thriving and go get attitude-ish. Like violent and forcefull raw dominance to go out and fuck hiding or any of that stuff.
I experience more gratititude and had an nice experience this morning, like some theme in line with AM6, as if the universe threw that at me.
My bodylanguage and walk has changed again in an more "go get no bullshit" demeanor. almost rushing like getting into an fight.
Im feeling restless, more iritated, yet avoid drama. If she gives drama I directly turn off and grow cold and silent, like not rewarding such bullshit behaviour. Still slightly conflicting.
Reading deeper in power structures and strategies. Am aware that an few reads and putting into practice is more valuable then reading lots. Expression is the rule now. Marking territory. Branding it. Also having reoccuring thoughts of the disruptive sigma aura and how it translates.
I aswell am more agressive at the gym, more dominant, more focussed and am contemplating about going "on" and run an cycle.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus