After reading the SM run of Kibagame Jubei and the discussions in it, many things click and fall in to place in my run. The social dominance, abundance and limited beliefs surrounded by seks are solwly dissolving. Also, dealing with an massive headache today, seems to be some sort of resistance, because as soon as I am accepting it and am thinking "it is there"something dissolves. and mood goes up. Deeper stuff regarding sex and understanding is coming up, solidifying myself and growing. Notice when connecting with people, at times, its like an invisible pull, tingling and charging my dick, pulling into my reality.
Also, some people shouting outside and I don't feel like watching or can't be even bothered by it and hold an strong frame currently, not moving an inch, knowing it is there, unmoving like a rock, not distracted at all, just noticing and dismissing the event.. Also, eye contact with people improves further, its as if it is triggered like some invosible force coming from inside showing itself.
slowly changing patterns around nice guy shit, some deeper understanding and further development, more deep and real. Understanding changes, insights that once were, are changing again, like adding and shedding and gaining deepr insight.
Externally I am sexy as hell, like, post sex summer house/penthouse orgy owner kind off. Internal is lots going on. I'm mixed between sadness and euphoric currently but feel incredibly raw and forcefull in presence. Sometimes I am sexually charged and it keeps on raging and going, yet lately I switch between being horndog and uninterested like an flip switch.
came to realize today my place in the world, how this is MY reality, an swap of plces basically. Also detesting some women and behaviours. comes with the territory I suppose. dissolving of GSF.
Also, some people shouting outside and I don't feel like watching or can't be even bothered by it and hold an strong frame currently, not moving an inch, knowing it is there, unmoving like a rock, not distracted at all, just noticing and dismissing the event.. Also, eye contact with people improves further, its as if it is triggered like some invosible force coming from inside showing itself.
slowly changing patterns around nice guy shit, some deeper understanding and further development, more deep and real. Understanding changes, insights that once were, are changing again, like adding and shedding and gaining deepr insight.
Externally I am sexy as hell, like, post sex summer house/penthouse orgy owner kind off. Internal is lots going on. I'm mixed between sadness and euphoric currently but feel incredibly raw and forcefull in presence. Sometimes I am sexually charged and it keeps on raging and going, yet lately I switch between being horndog and uninterested like an flip switch.
came to realize today my place in the world, how this is MY reality, an swap of plces basically. Also detesting some women and behaviours. comes with the territory I suppose. dissolving of GSF.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus