Yeah, stage 4 is definitely something and i dont give a fuck at all anymore lol
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having still some patterns going on but gatting dramtically more arrogant and dominant, the girl I'm seeing likes it aswell. The one-itis is dissolving, like, shes one of many but still this moment is valuable. Almost no emotion behind this but increasingly detached and stable perhaps. My head has an sort of pressure going on and I´m still tired, but the moments I went mute and more introvert seem to be recognized aswell.
The SM lead in seems to be building up, I´m almost burstig currently. Stage 3 was heavy, but stage 4 builds further on this. Its so strong. Validation is further reduced to the point people can be showing IOI´s but I remain unphased, I am the prize, I am an 10.
Imagine damon salvatore cocky on steroids. Also my sexuality is more on an cintinuum. Everything I read is like an super computer absorbing it, yet fleeing aswell. The sub is digging deeper and drilling deeper in my psyche and I´´m hyped. No more holding backs.
I feel being aflame-ablaze now. I lead. So many things are clicking, including being dominant when it isnt necessary, which is rather clownish. ´Calibration= Im taking the lead and just do it now. My eyes lock better then ever.
My attitude gets alo more rude and an get on with it, like, being sexual and keeping at it. like, more blunt in stating some things.
I get more liplicks aswell as mesmerizing stares and one girl at work did an boobdisplay and didnt hide it at all, like, full exposure shirtwise aswell as buttdisplay.
haifrstyle gets more sexy aswell, like, post sex out of bed hair kind off. I dont really care at all about it to become extremely sexual. Noticed the influence of the sub aswell this morning, getting aware of thoughts going through my head, yet subtle, but not something I would stir up.
Edit1: having an pretty strong headache, more anxieties coming up and brutal experiences going on. feeling in an dream at times, which I think is the SM aura at this stage along with some other stuff. Its as if shannon is fixing me haha. Also, eye contact and strong dominant bodylanguage, no bs and less smiles. Also, I'm becoming aware I'm underestimating myself. My eyes are getting really seductive, low eyelids, taking up more space. Incredibly tired. Need to eat more, experiencing waves and slowness, relaxing seems to help. Before i would be phased with women even if only a bit, now I see my value skyrocketing, and I am the prize in it all, in this story, in my reality.
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having still some patterns going on but gatting dramtically more arrogant and dominant, the girl I'm seeing likes it aswell. The one-itis is dissolving, like, shes one of many but still this moment is valuable. Almost no emotion behind this but increasingly detached and stable perhaps. My head has an sort of pressure going on and I´m still tired, but the moments I went mute and more introvert seem to be recognized aswell.
The SM lead in seems to be building up, I´m almost burstig currently. Stage 3 was heavy, but stage 4 builds further on this. Its so strong. Validation is further reduced to the point people can be showing IOI´s but I remain unphased, I am the prize, I am an 10.
Imagine damon salvatore cocky on steroids. Also my sexuality is more on an cintinuum. Everything I read is like an super computer absorbing it, yet fleeing aswell. The sub is digging deeper and drilling deeper in my psyche and I´´m hyped. No more holding backs.
I feel being aflame-ablaze now. I lead. So many things are clicking, including being dominant when it isnt necessary, which is rather clownish. ´Calibration= Im taking the lead and just do it now. My eyes lock better then ever.
My attitude gets alo more rude and an get on with it, like, being sexual and keeping at it. like, more blunt in stating some things.
I get more liplicks aswell as mesmerizing stares and one girl at work did an boobdisplay and didnt hide it at all, like, full exposure shirtwise aswell as buttdisplay.
haifrstyle gets more sexy aswell, like, post sex out of bed hair kind off. I dont really care at all about it to become extremely sexual. Noticed the influence of the sub aswell this morning, getting aware of thoughts going through my head, yet subtle, but not something I would stir up.
Edit1: having an pretty strong headache, more anxieties coming up and brutal experiences going on. feeling in an dream at times, which I think is the SM aura at this stage along with some other stuff. Its as if shannon is fixing me haha. Also, eye contact and strong dominant bodylanguage, no bs and less smiles. Also, I'm becoming aware I'm underestimating myself. My eyes are getting really seductive, low eyelids, taking up more space. Incredibly tired. Need to eat more, experiencing waves and slowness, relaxing seems to help. Before i would be phased with women even if only a bit, now I see my value skyrocketing, and I am the prize in it all, in this story, in my reality.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
