stage 1 day 25
My writing sklills go more fluid, im sitting more upright and I feel somewhat bigger? Not really able to put into words as it is very natural. Like taking up the writing space and typing with both hands.
I decided to quit porn, as an conscious action. Im almost craving the real deal, being close and what not. My attention is more outward now and I have purpose. feels great. By not indulging into masturbation Im feeling really good and am going to master this. I think boredom caused this to trigger before, or having something to do aswell as an habit. Not doing it makes me feel more alive and confident instead of depressed everytime for some short lived moments.
Feeling socially savage and on top of the world like that same thing ASC had. AM takes full dominance and reign currently. It doesnt matter. Its fuelling. Inspired and supporting feelings going on on this. opening effortlessly, like some tension is lifted up It doesnt fucking matter. Im thrilled. The world is my playground. makes me realize I might have had dreams of approaching last night for some reason but cant remember them, only that some stuff is resonating and feels familiar to it.
Learning new languages. Italian and korean popped up, yet Germany is next door so im not settled yet on it as to which languages. the idea is there and will help me grow business wise, in the social field aswell as with acquintances.
Exploring linkedin. Im feeling more in control then ever, not giving and fuck about other people, just self development. Feels great, centred. Fear has no place, neither has hubris. My business mindset is flowing, my field of vision less isolated and more complete. Bit like described in Unchained Man book, setting apart ones happiness, but this is another model.
Realized shame. Now I can disconnect from it and process it. Couldnt place the feeling before. I'm growing in everything.
Contemplating carreer. Running own business still stands, but field experience would be great aswell. Like coaching and fitness field. Im capable. Feel like hitting some AM points here.
Writing an book. Im thinking in possibilities. Going for the passive income in that as an result.
On an lighter note on some play around goals: getting an BJ at the dancefloor have crossed my mind aswell as an handjob at the dentist would be neat. haha.
Should be enough.
My writing sklills go more fluid, im sitting more upright and I feel somewhat bigger? Not really able to put into words as it is very natural. Like taking up the writing space and typing with both hands.
I decided to quit porn, as an conscious action. Im almost craving the real deal, being close and what not. My attention is more outward now and I have purpose. feels great. By not indulging into masturbation Im feeling really good and am going to master this. I think boredom caused this to trigger before, or having something to do aswell as an habit. Not doing it makes me feel more alive and confident instead of depressed everytime for some short lived moments.
Feeling socially savage and on top of the world like that same thing ASC had. AM takes full dominance and reign currently. It doesnt matter. Its fuelling. Inspired and supporting feelings going on on this. opening effortlessly, like some tension is lifted up It doesnt fucking matter. Im thrilled. The world is my playground. makes me realize I might have had dreams of approaching last night for some reason but cant remember them, only that some stuff is resonating and feels familiar to it.
Learning new languages. Italian and korean popped up, yet Germany is next door so im not settled yet on it as to which languages. the idea is there and will help me grow business wise, in the social field aswell as with acquintances.
Exploring linkedin. Im feeling more in control then ever, not giving and fuck about other people, just self development. Feels great, centred. Fear has no place, neither has hubris. My business mindset is flowing, my field of vision less isolated and more complete. Bit like described in Unchained Man book, setting apart ones happiness, but this is another model.
Realized shame. Now I can disconnect from it and process it. Couldnt place the feeling before. I'm growing in everything.
Contemplating carreer. Running own business still stands, but field experience would be great aswell. Like coaching and fitness field. Im capable. Feel like hitting some AM points here.
Writing an book. Im thinking in possibilities. Going for the passive income in that as an result.
On an lighter note on some play around goals: getting an BJ at the dancefloor have crossed my mind aswell as an handjob at the dentist would be neat. haha.
Should be enough.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus