stage 1 day 18
Hopelessness, anger and depression running rampant today, Almost feeling defeated and becoming aware of fears, such as the fear of obsession and being sucked in fully in activities and what not. Guess its fear of change or some sort. Its up to me to take my life in my hands. Anger might be maturity developing further. Thinking about money, jobs, dressing better and sharper, looking ito watches, and my current situation triggers lots of defeatist feelings, about some social programming coming up and some past programing and issues popping around of being judged and what not. I can already shed it more easily and am learning to shed it and the sub also aids in this.
On some other news; Suddenly there are way more women noticed when Im out and in my vision. Last time I also thought as to how there seem to be an common trait of attraction in them, similar types of women, and it feels very normal and natural, like breathing.
Hopelessness, anger and depression running rampant today, Almost feeling defeated and becoming aware of fears, such as the fear of obsession and being sucked in fully in activities and what not. Guess its fear of change or some sort. Its up to me to take my life in my hands. Anger might be maturity developing further. Thinking about money, jobs, dressing better and sharper, looking ito watches, and my current situation triggers lots of defeatist feelings, about some social programming coming up and some past programing and issues popping around of being judged and what not. I can already shed it more easily and am learning to shed it and the sub also aids in this.
On some other news; Suddenly there are way more women noticed when Im out and in my vision. Last time I also thought as to how there seem to be an common trait of attraction in them, similar types of women, and it feels very normal and natural, like breathing.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
