09-21-2010, 10:50 AM
(09-21-2010, 09:43 AM)ronatello Wrote: More of a feeling of not attaching any outcome to something is manifesting nowadays. I used to get annoyed if, like for example, if I waved at someone and they not wave back but nowadays, I wave and I really don't care if they wave back or not. I just think, "their loss, not mine" which is the attitude to have and I wish I had that attitude when I was growing up (note to myself: build time travel device and travel back to my high school days and give myself the subs burned on CD's of course... mp3 didn't exist back then, LOL).
Attaching an outcome to something is VERY self sabotaging.
I'm noticing that I'm doing braver things and saying stuff that I used to not say. A good example of this was when I was at Hoots last night and I was talking to my waitress and I brought up the subject of getting my back waxed (!). Normally I would keep crazy stuff like that to myself but hey, I have nothing to lose and I really don't give a flying f*ck what they think about that so I told them anyway. And one asks why I did it (umm, why do girls or anyone get waxed? To remove unwanted hair, DUH!). Her eyes got so big like she couldn't believe she was hearing this! lol
Then another girl came over to talk about it (girl 1 told girl 2 about me) and then she comes over and wants to check it out. Then she asks if a guy or a girl did it, how much it costs and so on.
Hey, I have nothing to lose and do I care what they think about that? No.
I spotted a cardboard tube found in paper towels and snagged it and wrote "konker bonker" on the tube and tried to hit the waitresses with it as they came by my table.
Also, every time I go there, there is a guy that pulls a lot of the girls to his table and he's there longer than me when I do go there (in other words, he's there before I enter the restaurant and after I leave... still there). If I didn't know any better, he's there probably every day. Every time I'm there, he's there no matter what time of day it is. But do I care? No. I'm not competing with him and nor do I care about what he's up to. I do my thing. He used to bother me but I just ignore him nowadays. I used to be a bit jealous but I let that go. Umm... why should I be jealous?
Another waitress comes by and asks, where have I been? And I answer, hiding from you. And then she strokes her finger at me (the shame shame stroke) lol. I felt like being a bit of a smart ass to her.
Overall, things are really beginning to click in place. Despite me discontinuing the other attraction subs, I still feel some of the effects from them doing their magic. The alpha male sub will make the attraction subs MUCH more effective in due time.
Now, if that mild frontal headache of mine would subside!
Drink more water.
Actually, I am serious here
My headache seems to have dropped after increasing water intake. I am sure it had got something to do with alpha self-control being build in.
Dude, you have great sense of humor, I do not know what other subliminals you are on, or what else are you on, for that matter, but you got me laughing here.
Reminds me of myself in my "I do not give a fuck" second puberty.
To me, this alpha is actually more serious, mysterious, present one.
Yesterday I even experimented "Now state" where time disappeared and I was as present as I could be.
It is good to see that fun-devil of yours.
