08-22-2010, 08:18 AM
(08-22-2010, 08:02 AM)ronatello Wrote: Well, the Omega part, lol I just threw that in. But anyways, I thought I would offer a few explanations on why I went with this program vs. the WM.
1). I want to build a solid foundation. I may have a few things that need to be pulled out of my subconscious that may be blocking me from being the best me. I want to build from the bottom up... not from the top down.
2.) I need to put women on the backburner and focus on MYSELF!
3.) I know for a fact that this program will be a very important asset to me as I continue to move on and live my life.
4.) I have never been fully (100%) able to express or to convey what I really feel to others w/o feeling guilty doing so or with some possible negative response from others (garbage programming, you see).
5.) My confidence is hit and miss. Granted, it is WAY better than it used to be but I still seek improvement.
6.) I credit the ASC sub for getting rid of a lot of neediness. I expect the same from this program. Neediness will be a word no longer in my dictionary very soon.
7.) More confidence with dealing with family matters (I think most of us have been there...)
___________________________________________________
So here is a bit of history on me...
I was born in SoCal (Anaheim). I still love California. We lived there until August, 1980. When we moved to central Arkansas, a part of me died, so to speak. Out there, I had a girlfriend and we even kissed a few times. I remember awesome times out there. There was always something to do out there and I had quite a few friends.
Growing up in Arkansas wasn't that fun for me. I had a few good times though but it paled in comparison to my life out on the west coast. Garbage programming began to take hold immediately after moving here.
My relationship with my father was very strained and distant. I was raised by my mom 90% of the time. He is what I would call a bonafide "Beta-male". It would have been cool if I had a dad like Cory Skyy but anyways.....
Me and my mom were (and still are) very close. She once told me that I'm more of a man than my father ever was (he's better now than in the past but still has a LOT of issues... esp. with women). But she also had negative programming and put some fears / doubts inside me that I'm sure she didn't mean to.
I was shy and awkward all through school here. I had a few instances where pretty girls would flirt with me but doubting myself held me back a lot of times when I could have easily scored with them (looking back...).
Things didn't improve any upon finishing school. More confidence issues and doubting continued.
It wasn't until 2008 when I took a bold step in order to tackle this problem once and for all. I downloaded the DYD e-book and read it... liked it. I switched over to Cory's MM program in early November, 2008. Began seeing some results in a couple of months. However, I began to act somewhat needy once I became aware of the "eye game" and whatnot.
I'm not knocking any program. Cory's method works for most. It works for me to some extent. My problem was that I couldn't 100% let go of the affirmations so I became somewhat dependent on them in order for them to work.
So that's it in a nutshell. I'm looking forward to my 6 month journey!
This will go in the "adult" section because what I may say may be a bit naughty at times. So be it!
Welcome aboard this Alpha train (sorry, K-trian, for using your trademark)!
Your path may be beset by evil and tyranny of a lesser man, but blessed is he who guides and shepherds himself with bravery and persistence!
hehehe.
Wish you stick with this through all doubts and persistence, cause for me, it is sure as hell strong.
