04-11-2018, 01:41 AM
I'm facing a lot of BS. I hold a lot of sadness, hating. Feel pain around eyebrows and eyes.
I don't feel secure enough as a man. People and women still treat me like their little brother. Some call me baby. I don't know they really mean that or they just challenge me, test me. But the important thing is I don't feel myself as a man.
I see my father, I heard the voice inside me hating, insults him for not guilding me. I've read somewhere that relationship with father determine how a man he is. or am I blaming him?
I have been seeking for the weakness of the other men to feel good, secure. To make sure at least I'm not one of them, so that I can feel me standing out and special.
Hard resistance.
I don't feel secure enough as a man. People and women still treat me like their little brother. Some call me baby. I don't know they really mean that or they just challenge me, test me. But the important thing is I don't feel myself as a man.
I see my father, I heard the voice inside me hating, insults him for not guilding me. I've read somewhere that relationship with father determine how a man he is. or am I blaming him?
I have been seeking for the weakness of the other men to feel good, secure. To make sure at least I'm not one of them, so that I can feel me standing out and special.
Hard resistance.
